So some of you may know that just before christmas I was having a really hard time with my anxiety... like, really really hard. I went back on my meds (20 mg of citalopram) and got through christmas quite well. hardly any anxiety at all if I remember correctly.
On the 5th of january, my other half and I moved from my parents into our new house.I was excited but a little apprehensive. the first week I was enjoying it, was exciting putting our stuff everywhere etc.
then just after a week, the anxiety started to creep back in... waking up with butterflies in my stomach, feeling unsettled, very emotional, wanting to cry and crying alot. and now its the same routine every day. Im waking up and anxiety is making me freeze I feel like I cant get out of bed. I just feel sick and anxious in the pit of my stomach.
I really hate what my life is becoming and I'm so fed up of this, I almost cant be bothered to fight it any longer. I want to be able to beat this with out meds but these days I just don't know if I can....
I have read other posts that say initially the 20 mg was enough but after a couple of months they noticed they needed upping and felt better almost straight away and now they feel much better.
for me mornings are the worst because as soon as I wake its a heavy heart and adrenaline, a sickly stomach and dread for the day which makes me want to cry, I feel like a failure who can never get better.
Hope you are all okay!!
Love Rose x