Reaching breaking point again. Anxiety, feeling dizzy and faint.

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A year ago I was diagnosed with anxiety both general and phobic.

I spent 4 month off work and locked in my flat apart from going to the doctors. I would feel dizzy and kept thinking I would pass out my balance was way off and I would work myself up so badly I believed I was about to drop dead.

I had medication and became quite reliant on diazipan to get through the day. After a while I came off it and stuck to my daily Meds and started to cope much better.

After I came off them without even noticing I had started to drink daily and found that after a few drinks that was the only time I felt anywhere close to happy or relaxed.

Yesterday I was out shopping and I felt so scared and thought I was about to fall to the floor any second. Of course it pretty much went as soon as I got home. It was the worst I've been in nearly 6 months.

After losing 2 grandparents, breaking up with my partner of 7 years, moving and starting a new career all in the last 5 months I'm really starting to struggle. I'm just so angry because I felt like I was beating it but then I realised I'd just been getting drunk.

I'm going to the doctors today, any advice or anyone who can relate please I'm desperate for help.