Hi there, justwanted to try and find other people in my situation, experiancing the same horrible feelings i do every day here's a bit of background.
i live in a damp property with my 3 year old and my husband my boys mean the world to me and without them i'd have fallen ill a long time ago... our landlord and the local council know about the damp situation but arent doing anything to help us its been going on for 2 years now, that with other personal problems i have been under so much stress and now iv'e ended up like this which i woudnt wish on my worst enemy..
I think it all started around 2/3 months ago i don't know why or what set it off but every time i went to bed in my head i kept thinking im going to die it became so unbareable i went to the drs who prescribed me fluoxetine. I started taking these but after just two days i had major side affects on the 3rd day i woke up and was fine for the first 5 mins but then i started to feel really light headed and wierd like i was going to faint in my head i thought this is it im going to die, i was screaming at my husband to help me i just felt so unwell, i splashed my face with water and kept pacing up and down the flat then i rang my mum who helped me calmed down it was one of the scariest moments of my life and it really shook me up. i contacted the dr and was advised to stop taking them so i did.....
The thoughts of "im going to die" when i go to bed have stopped however now in replace of them i have i cant breath, i cant catch my breath ,my throat feels so tight all the time i get really cold then when im having a panic attack i get really hot i get the whole hyperventilating breathing and tightness feeling along with feeling really light headed... it's such a big fear of mine now i hate these thoughts and feelings i don't want to die have no suicidal thoughts but i keep thinking im going to die =/
i do have a goitre in my throat which was picked up around a year ago apart from the appearence it didnt cause me much problems ive had scans, blood tests and lung function tests all come back clear this should give me some comfort but it doesn't. when im stressed/anxious it feels like my goitre is strangling me it's so scary . evenings are the worst time for me i litrally dread going to bed but my body is so tired but i always end up having panic attacks before bed its horrible i always feel like i cant breath and i don't end up going to sleep untill about 3am/4am everynight even though im in bed way before that. im 26 a mum and a wife my little boy is only 3 and ive panic attacks in front of him i just cant seem to control them, my poor husband is worried out of his mind and ends up getting up with me in the night which has major affects for him as he works 5 time a week so i thought maybe coming on here talking to others in a similar or same situation may help me and take the pressure of my husband. i have spoken to the drs btw and they want me to have more pills including sleeping pills but after my experiance with fluxotine i refuse to take any more meds.
Much appreciaton a very anxious 26yr old xx