I am so miserable right now. So, I have emetephobia (irrational fear of vomiting or seeing/hearing other people vomit). Just the v* word itself makes me panic. It's really bad; I've been taking zofran (strongest prescription anti nausea medication) twice daily for about 2 months now! I feel like if I don't take it, I am risking getting sick at any moment. If i take it, I feel somewhat relaxed because its my "safety blanket" and almost guarantees I won't be sick. I'm deathly terrified of vomiting. I would rather chop off my own hand than vomit, I'd rather die than vomit. I'm scared to be in public in case I start to feel sick and incase someone around me vomits. Once when I was at the mall, a kid vomited beside me and I started cringing, shaking, and ran away while plugging my ears-it was a terrible experience. Anyway, getting to the point: as you can see I have a VERY bad fear of it and guess what... the worst thing possible just happened... I just got the stomach flu (or what they call the '24 hour flu'). Atleast I hope its only 24 hours because I am freaking out. I rarely get stomach bugs and I can count on one hand the amount of times I've vomited in my life (and can remember exactly where I was, what I was doing at the time, and EVERY detail). Anyway, it started about a day ago when I began to feel dizzy, lightheaded, off, and a little queezy but I thought I might just be hungry or something so I forced myself to eat... My nausea was still there and I tried EVERY remedy but nothing helped- zofran (strong anti nausea prescription), gravol, ginger gravol, pepto bismol, peppermint tea, flat gingerale, boiled potatoes, plain rice, a banana.. nothing worked. My nausea got increasingly worse throughout the day and especially worse at night. Once the night approached, I layed there until 4am with chills, and the most severe nausea I've felt in a very long time. As you can imagine, this is extremely disturbing for an emetephobe. So, I was absolutely hysterical, freaking out, crying, shaking, and doing everything in my power to NOT vomit. I took zofran (the prescription that stops vomiting), and eventually after alot of crying and begging my mom to take me to emerg (which I did not end up going because they cant do anything anyway), I fell asleep. I woke up this morning at 9 30 still feeling nauseous but not nearly as bad as last night. I feel exactly like right before you vomit, but constantly and I havent vomited yet (which I believe is thanks to the zofran). But I'm too scared to eat, drink, MOVE because of my fear of being sick. I honestly cant handle it, I really would rather die than deal with it... Its just something about the uncertainty of it, the loss of control, and fear that it will never stop take over and I can't handle it. Im also having stomach pain/cramping in addition to the nausea and chills but strangely I haven't had diarrhea (sorry, TMI) which normally comes along with norovirus. Although zofran does cause REALLY BAD constipation so maybe thats why... I don't know what this is, if its the 24 hour flu, or what if its food poisoning??- then that means I'll forsure vomit, oh god. Can I get through this without vomiting or does it HAVE to happen? I'm so scared and don't know what to do anymore. Out of ALL people to get this virus, it had to be me-an emetephobe, sigh. Please help!
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