Hi to anyone who is reading,
My name is Avia Wallen. I have recently ironically self diagnosed myself with health anxiety. Due to me being 21 partying, drinking and taking drugs has played a big part of my life (unfortuntely) but after a few bad times recently I am now too anxious to leave my house unless its for work. I fear every night that i go to sleep i wont wake up and due to worrying and being under so much stress at the moment i am now experiencing some physical symptoms which are leading me to believe that I either have MS or a brain tumor or some other kind of neurological disorder. I have seeked help through my doctor and just got palmed off with conselling agencies that have a waiting list of 6-12 weeks. Some days I am fine, i wont think about anything physical, i will be able to enjoy my day as if i never suffered from anxiety. Then on a bad day, I am really bad.. I have a constant anxious feeling in my stomach and chest.. I have been experiencing head aches, being off balance, not being able to articulate myself and getting my words muddle up in a sentence, short attention span and cannot concentrate to save my life.. I am unsure wether I generally have something wrong with me or wether it is my anxiety just highlighting all these symptoms because i am worrying about them. I have had blood tests and things done all come back normal. Only thing i have not had yet is an MRI or CT scan.. Which if i am honest i really want just so i can rule out anything and move on. I suffered with this a few years ago, convinced myself i had cervical cancer and was having all the symptoms for it once the gynecologist ruled everything out I was back to my bubbly happy go lucky self within a few weeks. I am just wondering if anyone has any advice for health anxiety suffers? How can i stop myself from wanting to be in the doctors and hospital all the time? How can i get over this? My quality of life is crap at the moment I am scared to do anything i used to love that includes my job, i work in a vets where i have to listen to animals being diagnosed with fatal diseases and tumors which seems to trigger even more anxiety within me. Any advice would be much appreciated thanks!!