After a specific game of Taboo (2 months ago) where i became lost for words and was unable to properly play the game, i became very self-conscious in the way i speak ( i was made fun of by my friends and felt very dumb and inadequate). Since then, I feel like i lost the ability to speak as coherently as i used to. There are times (more often now than before) where I catch myself saying things that do not make sense or using words that don't belong in the sentence. There are times where i say something, and midway into the sentence i realize my sentence no longer makes sense. in times like this, i usually rush to finish the sentence with any word that comes into my mind (which usually makes no sense).
Since the taboo game, I literally began judging every word and sentence i say when i talk; where I mentally criticize myself when i mess up during a sentence. This idea of not being able to talk properly has really consumed me; i cant help but always think about it. This self-consciousness has led to my mind being focused more on evaluating myself than actually having a genuine conversation. This has led to anxiety and borderline depression.
However, i also want to point out that i have times where i can speak very confidently, and my words and sentences come out very articulately and coherently.
Has anyone else experienced this? I am having trouble forgetting about this problem. Do any of you have any suggestions on how i can stop judging myself while i talk!?
IT is really taking a toll on my social life =(