So angry with myself.

[AuntieSue2]

I've been away from any type of working environment for almost two yrs due to a back injury and depression. I found a job I can do, working from home but I have to go away for a month to do some training n over the last 10 days I've experienced panic attacks again and again and again, I've been to the GP n he s prescribed 2mg Diazepam x 3 daily and Citralopram, I'm practicing every anxiety management technique I've ever heard of to little effect - what can I do? I need to work but jobs for people with back problems are rare, I think maybe I've tried to run before I can walk and am so angry with myself. Any advice??? Thank you.