Hi. I'm not really sure how this works but I feel like I need to say this. For as long as I can remember, even as a young child, I've had a sort of low grade anxiety murmuring away in the back of my mind, slowly but surely causing my confidence and happiness to ebb away. I'm now 21 and in the final stages of completing my Honours degree. Late last year, my motivation dried up because my workload and lack of self-belief sent my anxiety and low mood spiraling out of control. Outwardly, I'm pretty good at playing roles and appearing like I haven't a care in the world, most of the time. This is useful but is a problem in itself because whenever I feel particularly low, or when I tell people that I struggle with my mental well-being, they brush it off as something that 'will pass', when I know it won't. I saw a counsellor for a block of sessions recently and she repeatedly told me to see my doctor about medicine to help me cope but I didn't go because, as per, I thought I could push through my difficulties alone. I tried to use mindfulness but it really hasn't helped me. The situation is only getting worse. I avoid social situations where possible and find it particularly difficult to speak to people my own age- I'm even becoming anxious in one-on-one company with close friends. I am very self-conscious. At night, I lie awake for hours fretting and crying about unlikely, dire situations. I habitually (and severely) bite my nails, which I think is really disgusting, but I can't stop because my anxiety makes me pick at them constantly. My mood is really low these days and almost all of my thoughts are negative. I feel guilty about the way I am because my family are wonderful and I've never been in any way majorly traumatised. I'm tired of feeling like this. Would it be beneficial for me to see my GP? Would he be able to refer me to another counsellor or would he just prescribe medicine?
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