I don't know how to keep going.

[jclayton]

New job going well, It's only a few hours per wk but I feel better about myself for doing something, it's already helping with my confidence.

The doubts still come about my ability to do well at the job but I keep brushing them off and telling myself it'll all work out fine and keep pushing on. My family have never been encouraging with my education or career, my boss phoned today to ask if I can cover a couple of hrs over the wknd, I agreed, I asked my mum if she can babysit she said yes, but was really discouraging about the job. It has never taken much to make me stop before, well my mum's negativity this evening and her whole attitude towards my achievements are enough to make me want to crawl up in that ball and not come out, I want to lock myself in, stay in bed and not come out until I feel ready. Life doesn't allow us that, as I've said before my daughter keeps me going. Will I ever be able to stop fighting with myself. I feel like I need to give in to my anxiety and let it win.

[kinikia95]

Don't give up! Sounds like everything is great except for you mom's comments. Mothers do the best they can but they are only human. Go with what you know and your daughter's positivity.

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Hi,

You are doing well. Give yourself a big pat on the back. You will gain the confidence you need, try and ignore your mums negativity.

Xx

[snow-13]

I totally know how you feel. Over the years I felt the same but honestly now the very thing that has helped me get over this is how much I mean to God, honestly its amazing how much stress and worry he can take off your life. I am not religious at all but I promise you that God loves you and is super proud of you. He knows you inside out and can help you through any situation. I no longer look for the people that should love and encourage me but daily turn to God who so is there for me. You keep going and your doing great being a brill role model for your daughter.

Anxiety is not the winner here, no way. Let god help you and he will fight it and you give it all to him. an you look up Steven Furlick...be brave and also whatever..whatever.

here for you if you need a friend