Trying to muster up the courage to get home...

[Roserose]

My anxiety is really starting to get the better of me. The thing is, since my anxiety has kicked in ive become afraid of really silly things. I'm in Birmingham as I needed to get away from home and see my other half for a few days (he is my comfort) and now I know I have my first counselling session on Friday and I need to get back to just south of Bristol (about two hours drive) and I just can't seem to make myself leave. I feel sick and nauseated and almost frozen with fear. I've missed two weeks of college now and I know I need to catch up and get back into a routine. I feel really lost, I don't know what to do......

Really hoping for a reply, in need of some support and help.

Rose x

[smileforever]

Hi rose.

It's hard to take the first steps on your own when you have been with "your comfort" as you put it. And what's most prob happened is in that time you have spent with your partner you have relaxed a little and subconsciously built up a fear of going back to what you was feeling just before you see your partner.

The mornings were always toughest for me cause it was when I woke up alone as my partner leaves for work at 5. So for those few hours in the house on my own before I left for work were horrendous I used to dread it every night! Now what I do is wake up and do just 30 mins of meditation and tell my self I made it thought yesterday morning and I will make it through this morning aswell. It does take a while.

Anxiety can make you feel like u need reassurance all the time or that you can't be left alone out fear of having a funny turn!

Maybe try telling your self that you made the journey there with no problem and u can make the journey back too. Try some meditation be fore you leave.

Good luck with your councilling appointment and college

Take care

X

[dolly11111]

Hi sorry your feeling this way,you know what dont bloody let anxiety rule your life ,its thoughts creating emotions ,get in that car and say to yourself ,,,,you know what anxiety I a have work to do and a life to live if you must, get in the car with me cause I am off home ,yes it will feel odd but who s thw winner here who is moving farward yes anxiety is coming with you but this time your in the driving seat so to speak,,,,,and go on line a d buy a book called ,,,,at last a life by paul david I tell every one about this book as it saved me ,yes I still get anxious at times but I understand were its coming from and take it with me were ever I go its nkt great but its better than wanting to curl up in a corner and let really ,,,thoughts controll your life ,,,good luck and get driving☺

[Roserose in reply to dolly11111]

haha dolly thank you for this post I did actually buy that book and when i was half way through my computer got wiped and haven't got it since!! I got back home!! what a horrible drive! first counselling session tomorrow bring it on!!! xxxx

[dolly11111]

Hi ,hey you got back home ,well done keep going out thier you may have to take arnie anxiety with you yey I just gave anxiety a name I am still working hard to get my sense of humor back at least if you go out anxious ,the main thing is your going out thier will be some destraction to take your mind of the stupid thoughts we all get ,keep on going you WILL GET THROUGH THIS good luck ps let me know how you get on

[kaygreen]

Hope your doing ok.

I get the same issues

My boyfriend is what comforts me to.

I hope you manage to be strong xx