In complete honesty, I'm here to vent about what time thinking so I can try and calm myself down. I have an anxiety disorder and now have mild depression (was a lot worse.) and I also suffer chronic migraines (atleast that's what my doctor says.)
Any who, I'm venting and hoping to get advice about anything I write...
Here's a quick background: I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 12, I started cutting at the age of 13, got hospitalized in 8th grade, and I had my first anxiety attack when I was 14 after my great grandma had her stroke. Ever since she had her stroke my life has honestly change then I start realizing more things that were going on around me. My mother was a heavy drug addict, my ex-boyfriend raped me when I was 15, I moved from school to school almost every two months, sometimes I moved from home to home from between my mom and my grandparents with my little brother. I moved to Michigan right after my 16th birthday (2012). Now I live with my grandparents and little brother, and my life has turned out better but worse at the same time.
I have been up here for two years and I feel like my anxiety has gotten 10 times worse, but my depression has gotten a lot better. I stopped cutting when my current boyfriend found the cuts on my arm in the beginning of 2013, and I started going to a regular doctor more often than what I do down back in my home state. I attended a pre-college called Career Center in my Junior and Senior (current grade) for medical. (I have my CNA certification, CPR certification, ECG course completion, and my Phlebotomy Certificate of Completion.)
I know what you're thinking why am I on a group like this when I have all this knowledge from my medical classes, but I can explain what's wrong with me.
I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in 2013, and I was recently diagnosed with chronic migraines when my senior year started in September 2014. My anxiety attacks have gotten worse, and I feel that my migraines have been getting worse every day. I just can't understand why I can't control my anxiety or my migraines when I take medication for both. I can't seem to do nothing for neither of these problems. I tried to relax and lay down, I tried caffeine like my doctor asked to do but it didn't seem to work it made it worse, I tried Levander insents to help my migraines but that didn't work either. I want to try to meditate but it's hard for me to even sit down and relax with the living conditions I live in now.
It's now 2015, and I have all these achievements, an amazing boyfriend, a dear best friend, but I still have all these problems. I try so hard to treat these problems but nothing. I still have my migraines, I still get my anxiety attacks almost daily...I mean I don't drink, I don't smoke, I just don't understand... I'm starting to have the urge to start cutting again because of all the pain I feel but I don't want to do that. I'm 18 years old and I shouldn't be going through the hell I'm going through right now...
PLEASE comment below and give me ideas to help with my attacks and my migraines.
PLEASE comment support and kindness.
I'm not trying to make you feel bad for me, I just want help...
I no I'm not perfect by all means but just try to think of your positives in your life and don't worry about the negative.. It's hard I no but it's whT I am doing is focusing on what I have that's going good.. 
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