Scary Times.

[GreggySenpai]

I Have Had so many problems with my head in the past 3 years now, i have a feeling of im not quite in this world, and im not quite out, this sense of danger i know comes from anxiety, but i cannot find the proper way to battle it. I am often asked... "Do you know why your stressed or anxious?" And the answer would have to be this... 2 years ago when i turned 19 i moved out of My birth place of North Dakota and moved to Ohio to live with my Fiance and her Family. I had never been exposed to a different lifestyle that had "Drugs" in it, and after my birthday there i was pranked.... a horrible prank that involved a locked door, me inside the enclosed space, and some sort of "Smoke" involved. I later found out that it was a Weed smoke and i was inhaling it for hours, i had a freak out episode... and the only way i can even put it so people would know how it felt is through a video game... you know in Minecraft where the nauseated effect gets on you and the world wobbles and swirls? that is what happened for 8 hours that night... i couldnt escape it, my heart felt like it was beating so fast it was going to burst, and the room wobbled and moved. After about the 9th hour the room got to a point to where i could focus and see a single circular spot in the room and focus on it.... after that i got giddy and giggly, because the nightmare had ended.... Or so i thought... after i went to sleep and woke up... i felt a sense of unreality... and it scared me... i started having small seizures and such... I Get asked by my friends if i had gone to see any doctors... i have gone to the ER so many times... its not even funny... but i dont have a job and i am currently in the midst if getting Medicaid so i can be looked at... But back to my point and story... i have lived with this Sensation of not being in my body and rapid heart rate for 2 straight years now without much letting up... my question to everyone here... i know its anxiety, but how and where can i find ways to combat it in a positive and straightforward approach?