Its been a rough three days Work went well on the weekend ...But I could feel a change coming on Sunday. I was tired and I didn't get the usual enjoyment out of having something to do... Sunday night I went to a party and stayed too late ..as I was trying to break out of the cycle of just working and coming home. So Monday was a bust as I was tired and just could not get motivated to do much....I usually go over my notes from CBT and use that to get my day started in a positive way. For some reason my negative side has taken over...I feel its a futile exercise. Just be happy I mean really. ...Life is a struggle no matter who you are or what the situation... I wonder now if I may be a personality type that will always be questioning both sides of things... Well that's not true ...I don't wonder... I know that's who I am...So anyway I have been sleeping a lot its all I want to do.
I guess I feel some disappointment that my Daughter who had been on a trip to Asia didn't get in touch with me when she returned.. I emailed her but got a very short response... I expected too much there... and it hurt a little bit.... Also when I was out on Sunday I got into a conversation with a friend about his life ...which I could have done without... It was all bad and very disturbing.... So I had that on my mind... I just can't take on anymore unhappiness and as we all know we all have that side to our lives... I knew something was up last week when I couldn't stop crying at the drop of a hat .. anything of an unhappy nature set me off. Now I just feel like packing my emotional bags I can see now where this anxiety can lead to people never leaving the house... becoming a recluse looks like a good idea. When I lost close contact with my family my life changed .. and I just don't see getting that back.. and if that's not going to happen... then what.... Its all just day after day of this nagging doubt.
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It seems like I've lost all my confidence in recovering from this depression anxiety illness... I know I can't give in to it ....but I feel so alone in my struggle.... i mean yes it's good to come to this site and I do feel some support and compassion from you all..... But I need to have a real hug and to hear the words of love and I just don't have that at all ...I am a needy person ...I will admit that.... I give out all the time and get little in return (not from this site) but in day to day life. Its all going out ....when I am at work its 98% giving with little in return.... I was hoping that getting back to work was going to fill in the gaps.... but its not turned you that way... Partially due to my hearing problems... I feel that I am not taking part conversations so its a little isolating...oh damn it all to hell.......................................................... getting very sad now just don't see how I`m going to do this for the next 20 years ...
Hi Steve
Sorry you are feeling low at the moment
Try & I know it is not easy but take each day as it comes
If I project to much about the future it makes me so much worse & can get me down , so I try & say everything is just for today & today I can manage
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