So down, emotional and anxious- nowhere and no one to turn to...

[LouisaSmudge]

Having a really horrible time at the moment... I could go in to detail, but I don't even have the energy! Work is awful, my parents are not understanding about my depression, I'm stuck in London the whole weekend on my own and I need to move and find another job in the next few weeks. I haven't washed, I've hardly eaten, I have no energy to get food, I've suddenly developed social anxiety after going out yesterday and nearly having a panic attack from all the people pushing in to me; I'm crying, sleeping and have no one to talk to. The only little victory is I'm not feeling suicidal or wanting to harm myself.

[Mysteryreader]

Do you have any friends that could come round and/or talk to on the telephone? This certainly helps me.. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate moving work and home can be very stressful. Could you get some help with this? IF your not going anywhere don't worry about washing but try and eat something as with out food you will just get worse. Try and think of some positive things you can do over the weekend.. sending positive thoughts.

MR

[mimii]

Hi LouisaSmudge love that name just seen from your post a while back you'd just started a new job, are you changing jobs again sounds like there's a few things going on to make you feel low, do try and eat something even if you don't feel like it not eating makes you feel worse, please try and have a shower or maybe a nice bubble bath, this can seem like too much effort but you need to carry on with self care , is there any friends or family you could try and talk to xx

[LouisaSmudge]

No I don't have anyone around or anyone to talk to which is one of the reasons I feel so low- I'm managing to eat a little and going to try and get in the shower after I've had a late lunch.

[mimii in reply to LouisaSmudge]

Good for you talk on here as much as you need to we may not have all the answers but lots of ppl will understand and care xx

[shadow45]

Hi LS..... its does sound like your in a bit of a pickle. Having no one to talk to is the worst kind of loneliness. You found this site so take that as a positive step.. your not giving up... From your post it sounds like you have a lot of change coming in your life... Moving and finding a new job. I have done the same thing over the past few weeks.. I sold my house after 15 years of living there ....And I had to get back to work after a long break (I was looking after my parents).... It was all too much stress but I managed somehow to get it all done... You have more strength than you think. You will get through this stressful time. I still suffer from anxiety and take medication to help control it. I understand the lack of energy I stopped eating as well I lost 30 pounds and stopped looking after my appearance.. I used to shower everyday ...when I became anxious and depressed I would shower once a week ... odd how these things seem like a chore when we feel this way. Keep posting if you feel the need ...steve

[LouisaSmudge]

Thanks! Yeah lots going on- work are being great, but the job itself is really stressful- I want to quit now and then spend time looking for another job, but I know my Dad would hit the roof. I'm already having to contemplate going back to my parents' for a bit, which is making me really unhappy!! I should be grateful I have somewhere to go to!

[LouisaSmudge]

I knew talking to someone would NOT HELP! Just been talking to my brother and he said some really unhelpful things including "chin up"!!! I know he's trying to help, but that phrase infuriates me!!! I'm now in floods of tears and trying to not say anything nasty in response as I know if my mum found out she would tear me limb from limb!!