Well where do I start have always suffered with health anxiety if I have headache it's a brain tumour any ailment I have it's magnified and I come to the conclusion I have terminal cancer and I'm going to die. I also feel like this about my children. I panic I sweat I get heart palpitations I ring the docs and drag them down there to be told everything is fine.
Last wk a man at work was diagnosed with skin cancer for his moles so I go into meltdown go the doctors and they looked at my moles and said they were suspicious about one they wanted to refer me to hops. I went into complete meltdown couldn't go to work cried constantly had to go bk docs and they prescribed me diazepam. I couldn't wait the 2 weeks for the hops referral so I paid to go private the specialist looked at them and said she wasn't concerned in the slightest and there r nothing to worry about. Surely I should be relieved but I'm not. I haven't been able to go to work again today I feel like once and for all health anxiety has beaten me. I feel like enough is enough.
A few yrs ago my neck ached I convinced myself I had lymphoma cancer I cried and worried over this for months and months, I just seem to move on to something diff and it just consumes me completely.
But now I just think what's next what is going to be next and I just feel completely done and beaten and to say you know what I need some help.
I'm so sorry for rambling and this post prob doesn't make sense. I have rang a number this morn and have a phone appt with a therapist on fir but I just wanted some help on what helps everyone else, my mum has suggested St. John wort I don't know whether to pay private therapist for anxiety disorder I don't know whether to get some medication I just don't know what to do.
Then I get frightened and think what if I sort the issue out and then bang one of us does get ill and I was right all along to be scared!!!
I just don't know how ill ever not feel like this I also feel like I'm going to ruin my kids lives by being so teary all the time and panicky about the slightest ailment they have.
Sorry for such a long rambling waffling post thank you to anyone who has got this far in reading it hahaha xxxx