Hello my friends... Today I woke up angry and frustrated.... Its every day now when I wake up to this feeling of despair... Usually as many of you know I come to this site in hopes of getting things off my chest and sending messages of support.... Today as I log on I see so many of the posts are from people who are suffering with terrible pain and worry .And I must say for the first time I feel overwhelmed by them... I guess its how I feel today that reading these posts upset me too much to respond in a helpful way... As I see myself in them I started to think that what I am doing in my daily routine is just holding the wolves at bay... A thought came to me that I am carefully painting a picture only to burn it in the end.... I guess I am at a low point now.. Not as bad as some of the posts.. but heading for a fall. I get sick now just repeating myself over and over..
One of the worst things.. as you will know... is the hope that the next day will be different.. At night I do get some relief as I have said... Last night I prayed that this relief would stay with me until morning. Where I could wake up feeling the same way. But no it just will not happen..