I've been working with my councillor and found that I have without really knowing that I've been self harming.
This has come out in many different ways from general scratching to a violent cough. But we have manged to connect it all to my trigger.
I have also learned why I do this and it's related to control. With me putting myself to the edge then being able to step back. This reminds me I'm still in control.
Although a little surprised, it made perfect sense. And as soon as he touched on the subject everything just clicked into place.
Now I know, I can now work on dealing with it.
Just thought I would share