So on top of how phenomenally tired I am right now...doubt I'll sleep later but anyway I'm nervous about the doctors tomorrow.
My mums warned me that this is last chance saloon and I need to go in and be more pushy as I'm just not getting anywhere and I'm probably worse now than I ever have been.
I'm trying a different doctor and the one I've been going to seems at a loss with me. Everything she suggested to try and decrease my heart palpitations I have done...stopping smoking...dramatically cutting down on alcohol...eating more fresh fruit and vegetables...jogging or light exercise...I've been doing it all now for nearly a year and I'm 100 times worse than when I started.
I have chest pain from the minute I wake up till the minute I go to sleep...have done for going on 3 weeks...I now have palps everyday as opposed to just random ones every week or so...I feel like I struggle to breathe...I get soooooo dizzy now I have to sit down..I'm having panic attacks in the street, at work, in shopping centres.
I'm 27 and I feel I have no quality of life...that's the worst feeling...the only positive I have out of everything is you know what I have just carried on living my life...I still go to work...drive...go out clubbing...go to friends houses cause if I didn't have that I think I would have done something rather silly by now.
Look at me rambling on...haha isn't like me. Anyway I'm happy I got all that off my chest.
Here to a sleepy night hopefully
Xxx