CBT tonight.,,

I've started going fortnightly to CBT as I was starting to feel better and didnt need it as much...but after my break up I decided to go this week.

I feel though my session was just about how the things I'm feeling are just normal parts of breakup and that therapy wasn't really warrented...feel a bit silly now.

Don't get me wrong I did just some help and some tools on how to try and deal with this on top of anxiety which I think will help but that one negative part is sticking in my mind. I'm probably just being paranoid.

Anyway I've been playing GTA all night so that's took my mind off most things.

Xx

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Ashley , bed time now

Oh that game , son has been on it all day , well the swearing , I had to ask him to turn it down , the game that is not him swearing , even though I may have heard him to

Glad its kept you occupied though

Dont feel silly , you went to get some answers & you got some , that part of how you are feeling is normal when you have just broken up from someone & some useful tools , sounds good to me

When we are feeling low though we do get paranoid , but I think you were sensible by going

Get a good nights sleep

Love

whywhy

xxx

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Hey you.

Didnt really get a good sleep in the end. Was tossing and turning most of the night.

I guess one good thing my therapist said was that there is no point going over what's happened in the past with me and the ex as that's over with now..done and it can't be changed so I'm as well being in the now and just dealing with me and how I feel. Something like that I guess.

Xx

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Morning Ashley

Oh there is nothing worse than tossing & turning all night , sorry you were unsettled

But you no , this will take some coming to terms with

My first hubby was my first love , met him at 14 , & married at 16 , two kids & was married 10 years & yes of course I thought it was going to be for ever

When it ended & I was the cause believe it or not , I thought & felt my world had fallen apart & I would never love or want to love again & there would be no one but him

I was wrong , I did have to go through the pain , but you do move on & you will love again & you will be able to wish your ex well & actually mean it , takes time , but you will

Its right though , going over everything , the good times , the bad times , what was said , what maybe you could have or they could have done different , just holds up the process & causes more pain & they are all things that cant be changed & if you can when you start thinking this way , because you will , throw it out your head as quick as you can

One day , you will be able to look back on this with no pain & just be able to think of them with fondness , I no I am glad I was with my first hubby , I can take all the positives we had , 2 great ones , my daughters & yes I love him , as the father to my girls , but I am not in love with him anymore , but I wish him well & always ask how he is & actually mean it when i do

You will be the same eventually , takes time , but I no you will get there , its part of life , hurts I no , but I dont think many of us get away with not having this experience , but we all get through it & so will you

xxx

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I second GTA V as a brilliant form of distraction. I played it for three hours last night and it kept my demons at bay for the entire time.