After my depressing post yesterday I thought it would be a good idea to let you know that things have been much better today.
My dd allowed me a long lie-in which was greatly appreciated (& needed) then we got to go shopping, with my mother. We got out of the house calmly & with NO TEARS!
Dd went off on her own for a while & got the swimsuit she needed. Mind you, she looks so good in it I've told her no-one else is allowed to see her in it (i.e. boys!). Managed to get some new lingerie (you know what I mean) & a new outfit for my mam as well as something for her to give my dd for her birthday.
Dd is starting now with her anxiety about aches/pains/being sick but so far so good.
I should probably mention that along with GAD/panic/OCD/emetophobia & depression she does have other problems. A number of years ago she was assessed for Autism Spectrum Disorder. They decided although she has a lot of Autistic traits she doesn't have Autism. She has problems with her Sensory Processing i.e. she is hypersensitive to touch (the most affected), pain,sight & sound. Basically this means she takes in & has to process much more information than you or I. What would be a minor annoyance of a tag in a T-shirt is completely unbearable to her. Add all this to being a teenager.
She has got better over the years but I do need to keep reminding myself just how much she is trying to deal with. Now & again I feel sorry for myself, it's been a lot to cope with alone, but I need reminding that it is so much more difficult for her.
I should also say she is the most, caring, loyal, loving person I have ever met (when life isn't too much) & if ever you were stuck in a hard place she'd be there.
Anyway, sorry for the ramble, hope I have made things a little clearer.
Many thanks for the support