Got up and faced the dizziness and the palps nd internal trembling, then got all the pain and tension and felt faint. daughters then was arguing. have felt so ill and still do so came back to bed at 1 oclock. Hope you all having not to bad a day, I will read posts soon.
Love
Bonnie
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hi Bonnie hun,
i can empathise with you, i woke up feeling the same way and it sucks.
i hope you feel alright soon and the aches from the tension subside. i hope mine do to or nothing will get done lol. xxx
I am sorry you are rough to. I came back to bed, none of it has stopped, in fact now I have chest pain and muscle tremors , and like a creeping sensation keeps going up mu legs. it all so awful aint it, I don't no how we do it. I am at the end with it all at the moment its so physical. I hope you also feel better soon. thank you for your reply.
Love
Bonnie
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Hi Bonnie
Never helps when there is arguing , could do without that one hun
Sorry it doesnt seem like a good day again
See how you feel at the end of the week , if there is really no improvement may be a trip to the GP again
Take each day as it comes hun
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Thank you whywhy, yes will go back to GP at the end of the week if no change, so unwell has put me in bed, and no daughters arguing made things a lot worse, as when that started I just had to go bed, my elder daughter had a go a my younger daughter, I mean they are 35 and 30 !!
My elder daughter was upset that my younger one had been on a day off today and done nothing and that she does not clear up behind herself . She leaves it to my eldest to do, I feel helpless and so hopless that I am as I am and should be doing whats needed, but I cant do it physically , and feel so guilty , I just cry and cry, I used to do everything, my poor eldest is working and doing the house and looking after me whywhy, it upsets me so much, she I looking stressed and I am worried bout her now, she the only one who trys to help me, younger one don't.
Love
Bonnie
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O Bonnie hun
If it makes you feel any better & may be it wont , but my eldest has a job which is full of pressure & she is the manager & has to work long hours , she has a home to keep , OH & his 2 boys are there most of the time & then she takes her daughter all over because she dances & she never has a minute , she sends me dizzy & I often wonder how she manages it all
So what I am trying ti say is alot at your eldest daughters age are doing these kind of things , but you are feeling guilty because part of that is looking after you , but if you add that guilt to how you already feel , well , you will just bring yourself down more
Maybe its time to tell the youngest as they both live there , which is alot better life still been at home than having to look after your own place & pay all the bills , so you could do with telling the younger one she needs to pull her weight
Meanwhile try not to feel guilty , your eldest wouldnt be doing this if she didnt want to
Try turning it into a positive & thinking what a good job you must have done that they love you so much 
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Hey Bonnie
I hope you start to feel better soon, I used to love crawling into bed when I didn't feel well but my body just wants to be on the move all the time, so enjoy resting away in bed as much as you can
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Thank you Ashley sorry to here you are not to good either , I am in bed, but I don't want to be, I hope your CBT is good.
Love
Bonnie
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Had a visitor today:-)
Tuesday phased back to work
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Went to therapy today
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