High now very low .....

[MissyK]

Going through a bad stage of health aniexty at the minute but this morning I got up and did some housework and then went to a baking class which I'm attending. I had a few wobbles about going thinking what if I take ill in the car or in the class but I overcome this and went. I had a great afternoon and had good fun. I came home and the mood was good but it all came crashing down - as last 4days I've been experiencing pains that come and go in my lower right back and lower abdomen ive been to the doctors but he doesn't know and is referring me for an ultrasound but could take a month)Tonight the pain lot really bad in back and I really did panic. I've calmed down now but the thoughts are still lingering and yes I did look on google ('my ban didn't last too long)so I read lots of things and now I'm low. I don't know how on earth I will manage work in the morning .

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Hi Missy

First of all well done for getting out to class, that's a really big achievement to overcome your health anxiety and get yourself out there! Amazing!! It's so easy to talk yourself out of going somewhere just because you have a few wobbles (I actually failed to get to class yesterday, however I think it was due to laziness rather than wobbles for once lol) so well done you

As for the pains.... it's good that you're getting checked out by the doctor, but I daresay this is another lovely anxiety symptom. I still find it incredible (and bloody annoying) how awful the stomach pains and muscle aches can be, all due to being anxious.... Don't torture yourself with thoughts and panics about work, just try and relax and get yourself through the evening and take that pressure off of yourself. At the end of the day in the grand scheme of things your health is more important and you'll probably find that you're fine in the morning anyway!

Good luck and stay positive! Just think of the wonderful time you had at class today, how bad can it be x

[MissyK]

Thanks I was really pleased to go today I was full of excitement when I came out of it and also I put my baking pics on a social network site and lots of people commented saying I should start up small cupcake business which was really good but I just wish these pains snd soreness could go away but u prob know what it's like if just keeps playing in your mind, it could be a simple kidney infection but sure who knows.

[MissyK]

And i always just think to myself I wish I could get rid of this torment cause life is for enjoying I've a nice home, good job, two lovely kids so I should be enjoying it instead of bottling this up. But I can't help thinking will it all be taken from me ....