Anxiety Bubble..

[GlobalJ3]

Over the last few day's, it's been almost like a bubble has been getting thicker and thicker around me.. full of anxiety.. I used to suffer really bad from anxiety about a year ago.. but i had 6 weeks of CBT, started to feel better and it all wore away. However lately, big signs of it are returning. And it's flooded back all the depressing, anxious thought's i used to have.

I've decided to make a blog to explain to people.. or even relate to people the kind of symptoms i'm having.

- Headache

- Weakness

- So anxious that i can barely move.

- Lack of motivation

- Negativity.

- Every little niggle in my body and i jump on some kind of Health dis-function.

- Heart palpatations.

- Sometimes shakey.

.. the list could go on forever.

However, my anxiety hasn't quite peaked to a 'panic attack' just yet. But the way i'm feeling now, i can virtually see one coming along some time soon.

I think most of my anxiety comes from health issues. I havn't got any. Funnily enough.

But every little normal pain i get.. whether it be in my leg, my arm, my chest, my back, my neck or my head... and i jump on the "have i got... " so and so "Disease", "Disorder", "Infection", "Heart Failure", "Going to have a Stroke", "Brain Tumour", "Heart Attack", etc etc etc etc.....

I think the headache i've been having lately.. - in which i know i've got down to stress in work - is throbbing, and per each throb i feel,......... i automatically think it's a brain tumour and i'm going to die young, and.. my family attending my funeral, and.. my name being in the papers because i'd died. bla bla bla bla. So, a little bit of pain in the back of my head caused by a headache, causes my mind to do flip's on my death! and it makes me extremely anxious.. hence depression.. hence lack of motivation... hence negativity... hence "what's the point" attitude.. hence losing contact with friends and family.. bla bla. and this is all over a headache?....

Does anybody else feel this way?!

Regards,

GlobalJ

[AnxiousGal]

I'm curious on what are the thoughts you're having. Because I've been having recurring thoughts that I hate and will never in my life act upon.