Dread and Grief

2 of the worst combos. I lost my little brother violently recently and my estranged father. I haven't quite finished grieving my brother. His passing very much changed me. My father was a person I didn't quite know. His passion was confusing nonetheless. As of late my general mood has been filled with Anxiety, Depression and Dread. I fear for the lives of my loved ones, everyday. My partner has noticed this change in me. I'm desperate to get better again. Fast. But I know these things take time. I'm fighting everyday just to keep fighting. The otherside to this fight is an outcome I'm afraid of. I'm planning on going back to counseling and getting back on medication as well. I am hoping these tools can help me. Life is getting difficult worrying about my loved ones all the time.

[kenster1]

Sorry to hear about your losses we have a bereavement forum here hopefully you can check it out. I was the same as you my anxiety was so bad worrying about my family after loss.

[CLB1125]

I am sorry for your loss. Grief is a process and it takes time to heal. Fearing for your other family members is totally natural. I’m glad you are doing positive things to help yourself. What helped me when I lost my father (first close family I lost) I researched grief. I found out that all the crazy notions going through my mind was a completely normal response to grieving. Be kind to yourself. Every one grieves differently and at their own pace.

[Fefe09]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I think it would be good for you to meet with people experiencing the same issues. It helps talking to people that are going through the same. Like on here or in person would be great. Life is precious and is a gift from God. I have had depression for years and been on so many different meds. Some have helped and others not so much. Everyone is different. But I actually stopped taking after 30 years. Trying to give my body a rest from the meds and help my liver out a bit. I try and get up each morning and pray and give thanks for another day of life. I’m so thankful for everything my father does for me. You know words are very powerful. I do tend to be negative a lot cause of my health and stuff. But now I try and speak out loud that today I’m not gonna let this depression be in me. I’m gonna have a great day. And I have to say it sometimes all day even when I feel bad. I do pray for you to have peace in your life. Take care and God bless you.