Each day is just waiting for it to end

[wecanhelpeachother]

Anyone else feel this way. Like I wake up with the feeling of deep dread. Another day of my head giving me hell. How long until I can put my head down and sleep again. Each day I yearn for the last day but I have many years, if I live an average life span. I'm 44.

In short- I've injured my leg badly and there's a possibility that I'll never be able to walk again. Previously I was very active and adapting to a disability is giving me panic attacks anxiety and depression. I have reached the depths and I feel like a rat in a cage, the cage being my mental trauma, there's no way out.

I've just started Zoloft. But that's not going to fix the root of the problem which is my physical condition.

I have called mental health crisis lines (for UK people - Samaritans) but they never pick up. Not a very effective crisis line.

Anyway I'm glad to have found this forum. Seems like there's a lot of support here. Can anyone lend me a virtual hug or something solidarity?

Thanks guys xxxxxxx

[Nana_45]

Air hugs xoxo

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

We need to love ourselves as we would love a child in the same situation. We should think of the many people who don't make it but we did and reasons to live another day. Use our knowledge and brain to grow and make it. You will be able to do some of the things and maybe wheelchair user but to put what counts on what you can do. I don't know whether that helps but thinking of you. Just give yourself time to adjust to situation and make your life worth it

[LazyXrayEyes2255]

you are important human being with same person you were before same personality but more worries and to cope with more issues. But basically the same person deserve respect

Please see the real you. The survivor the best Of you

[Blearyeyed]

Have you spoken to the GP? Health Anxiety is hard , I know , and learning to cope with how a physical health problem changes your life can be very difficult.

There seems to be a huge gaping Abyss between the " Old Normal" and the " New Normal" when you can find the way to adapt and create a positive quality of life .

I know from my own experience that this is especially true if you were a very active person before your mobility is changed or you suffer a disability.

In a way it feels like Grief and just like Grief it takes time to come to terms with and time to adjust to the loss and find the hope you felt before.

I just hope you will believe me when I say , take each day as it comes , try to find positives even if they are small , and gradually the negative feelings do pass.

You can find new things , new experiences even within the limits you may have , you can get hope back.

If you are in the UK , tell your GP what you are feeling and ask to be referred for talking therapy with a therapist that can help you cope with your disability.

Also ask them to send you for CBT , or sign up to one of the NHS courses online.

There are also self guided courses you can do to help cope with health anxiety.

You can also ask the GP to send you for physiotherapy and to occupational therapy to get help with gadgets and services to help improve what you can do, they also assess your home to help make this user friendly for you.

It can take time for some of the appointments but in your circumstances, and because of the mental trauma this is causing, it should be fast tracked.

Speak to people close to you and be honest about how you feel and ask for help or support to get your confidence back.

Doing little things with someone by your side helps you to get used to them and brings back your confidence.

And keep posting , be patient with yourself and be proud of yourself for what you do manage to do each day rather than beating yourself up for what you can't , take care , Bee

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to Blearyeyed]

You are so kind to write such a thoughtful and helpful reply, thank you ❤️

[Packerbacker12]

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I am healthy and struggle like you. I believe that over time you will find a new normal. I hope to find that as well. Time. That's what it takes to heal.

[GreenNickelsPR50]

I am also just existing while it looks as though everyone else is having the time of their lives. I try to find goodness in the little things: healthy food, TV shows are a great distraction, a good movie takes me out of my head! I pray you will find peace, joy, happiness and hope!!!

[wecanhelpeachother in reply to GreenNickelsPR50]

Yeah, I think sometimes, try to just do one day at a time. Thinking of the past or what I've lost or what other people can do ..... Must avoid those thoughts..... Yeah TV is good.

[wecanhelpeachother]

Thanks so much everyone for your support 💕

[Ilovemyfamily25]

sending you hugs and love! I know how you feel, you’re not alone.