today was a day UNlike any other in history. i very sincerely think that we are witnessing the beginning of the end. repercussions from today will echo forward in ways we can't even begin to imagine.
[IMHO] the downfall is set, and i don't think there's any way to stop it. dunno if it'll take 5 years or 50 - but i think it's coming!
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as scary as that may sound - it's impact on my mental state is dwarfed by the thing i'm most frustrated about! what i'm most pissed off about!!! I CAN'T FRIGGING TALK ABOUT IT!!!!! all i can do is make vague references - i'm gagged by ******* rules - that force me to BOTTLE UP MY OUTRAGE. i want more than anything to scream my disbelief, to scream out "i'm ****** scared" - but what's the point of saying i'm scared if i can't even ******* say WHAT TF i'm scared about!!!????
frankly - i fear i may get kicked out by even making vague references to what gives me such pain and grief... but i'm SOOOOO DISTRAUGHT - I DON'T ***! i can't talk bout it - so what's it matter if i get kicked out of something that won't let me talk in the first place !??
i won't give them any hard excuses - but i'm ******* pissed!!!!!!! and i can't ******* talk about it!!!!! THIS IS THE VERY DEFINITION OF INSANITY!!!!!!!
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someone - point to me the chapter in the DSM that says treatment for my mental issues - REQUIRES THAT I ****!??!?!?!?!?! where is that treatment protocol in the DSM?????? huh???
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Hey R. “Acceptance is powerful. Once we accept reality, our anger tends to decrease. The painful situation loses the power it has over us. While the pain doesn’t go away, the suffering does”🙏
But how do you get to the point that you CAN accept things as they are? There are a few things in my life I was not able to accept, and here I am still miserable. But I can't MAKE MYSELF accept certain things. Do you know what I'm saying?
Acceptance is a choice. I learned accept or don’t accept. Not accepting keeps me bound and it gives power over me. I let too much in my life have power over me, I don’t do it anymore and I’m at peace with most everything or can get there with a little mind shifting and change of attitude.
Totally agree. I dropped what I was doing today to watch the breaking news. Then I had to shut it off. I went immediately to my meditation.
I also let too much in my life disturb my inner peace. I had a discussion today with a friend upset about people breaking covid protocol. I told her I can't keep getting myself worked up over what other people choose to do. I've accepted people are going to do what they want. My lack of acceptance was just leaving me angry and unsettled. I can't do that anymore.
I was outraged. Not gonna lie, but politics doesn’t really have a profound effect on my life.
Covid is my primary concern. I’ll just keep my self safe and let others choose. I can’t control others behaviors, I’ll be tapped out and exhausted trying.
As far as today, I can worry endlessly for the future of my daughters and my grandchildren, but what does that get me? More anxious, depressed, etc. I’ve learned in life we adapt and overcome, I raised my kids to be free thinkers, resourceful and they have pretty good stable heads on their shoulders. I have faith things just find a way to work themselves out, maybe be stupid, but I cannot be bound by this, I’ll stop living. Not giving into it.
Thanks Dolphin. I never want to be too naive. I’m old enough and been through enough personally I consider what I went through in my past down right suffering and persevering some pretty serious personal wars, but I’m not letting my aging gracefully be effected by too much.
soo true - i guess my problem w/ accepting is that the sh*t that's happening has moved SOOO FAR away from believable reality - it's difficult for me to accept...
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maybe that's another way of saying i have trouble accepting how UN-real, reality has become!!!
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maybe i'm afraid of accepting this un-real reality.... because if i start to accept such unreality - maybe next - i'll accept flying pigs and rainbow unicorns... and then - i'll be denying science, and listening to voodoo doctors... wait - i think i mixed up my realities again.... and then .. or maybe now .. i'll be ready for a nice rubber room somewhere quiet!!!
Daz egoistic talking! Don’t try to pretend you are not this or that. Simply accept this is who you are NOW. You exist Daz all through breathing. One breath at a time.
I know what you mean. Shocked but not shocked. Just when we thought we had seen it all something worse happens.All we can do is hope the right thing is done moving forward.
for 4 years it seems every day i've been shocked yet again - and yet after 1 year - shouldn't i be expecting the next shock, and NOT be shocked - and yet each is enough beyond the last - that i'm still shocked!!
so clearly i'm NOT learning from history! or .... IDK.... it's getting kinda convoluted upstairs - and it wasn't that easy peasy to start with!!
I don't think this is political in nature and I hope it doesn't get censored.We all know what happened. We are not taking sides or putting out negativity with names etc
We are sharing our feelings and learning things from each other
Oh 13ga...breathe breathe breathe.Ive heard the saying"This too shall pass",Well its feeling like a kidney stone the size of a car atm.So...huggies for everyone🤗
Peace n love😊✌❤
We shall all hold each other up till it passes,as it will.
Today’s chaos added to the anxiety of an already anxious year. Even a normally calm person could feel like of losing it.
The event today will have repercussions for years to come. I just hope that access to affordable mental health services has gotten better by then.
Thank you for being brave and starting this post. I too want to vent even if it’s to say it’s hard to work on feeling better mentally in an unstable environment.
And when that shaky place is the country you live in it’s not like you can just move to a different one.
As corny as this sounds, and yes I was complaining and cursing and yelling at the news, so I have a tough time doing it, but a good person once told me in times like these, “what does love look like in this situation”, whether it’s just being good to yourself, a neighbor or friend, or saying a prayer,
I’ve been getting a lot of good advice on HU to draw to deal with anxiety, so tonight although I want to just be upset and yell at the wall I will try to draw the Sistine Chapel in stick figures then hopefully get to bed.
I wish you a better tomorrow and a great February, hopefully by then we will have less worries like this.
get out! get out fast! for your own good!!!! save yourself!!!!
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faux - you had me at 'root causes' !!! and you only drew me in further with each sentence! like a siren's call, you drew me in with what could be my own words!
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i think it's gonna take ALOT more than a few years. what concerns me most - is actually not the racist, xenophobic, fascist, and anti-science mindsets in the gov... but the support of those mindsets in the populace!!! and not just the support - but the LEVEL of support!! it's far beyond my worst nightmare - and every time i corrected my estimate upward - i grossly underestimated the correction!!!!!!
all that has me questioning my own abilities to assess the situation!
you are clearly aware of the bigger picture... these are all the "behind the scenes" tidbits, that leave me thinking - we're beyond fixing.
there's simply too much wrong. too little control in the hands of the people - which doesn't matter anyway - because too few of the people are aware of all the problems - and you can't fix the awareness problem - because so few WANT to be aware!!!!
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i seriously don't think it's doable.... but i'd LOVE for you to argue against me, and prove me wrong! please - prove me wrong!!!
Hope you all stay healthy. Do not let this tragedy affect your health. Speak up for injustices or who else will. Let it our in healthy ways and there is nothing better than speak your truth instead of hide behind fear. Nothing that happened yesterday was due to injustice, but merely a need to rule others and gain power. History tells that does not work, but sure there are many who would disagree. We are not alone here.
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