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historic day - the beginning of the end

today was a day UNlike any other in history. i very sincerely think that we are witnessing the beginning of the end. repercussions from today will echo forward in ways we can't even begin to imagine.

[IMHO] the downfall is set, and i don't think there's any way to stop it. dunno if it'll take 5 years or 50 - but i think it's coming!

as scary as that may sound - it's impact on my mental state is dwarfed by the thing i'm most frustrated about! what i'm most pissed off about!!! I CAN'T FRIGGING TALK ABOUT IT!!!!! all i can do is make vague references - i'm gagged by ******* rules - that force me to BOTTLE UP MY OUTRAGE. i want more than anything to scream my disbelief, to scream out "i'm ****** scared" - but what's the point of saying i'm scared if i can't even ******* say WHAT TF i'm scared about!!!????

frankly - i fear i may get kicked out by even making vague references to what gives me such pain and grief... but i'm SOOOOO DISTRAUGHT - I DON'T ***! i can't talk bout it - so what's it matter if i get kicked out of something that won't let me talk in the first place !??

i won't give them any hard excuses - but i'm ******* pissed!!!!!!! and i can't ******* talk about it!!!!! THIS IS THE VERY DEFINITION OF INSANITY!!!!!!!

someone - point to me the chapter in the DSM that says treatment for my mental issues - REQUIRES THAT I ****!??!?!?!?!?! where is that treatment protocol in the DSM?????? huh???

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Hb20034 years ago

hello I feel your anger your not alone

13ga• in reply toHb20034 years ago

TY Hiba, i KNOW you do!!! 💜

Hb2003• in reply to13ga4 years ago

❤️ your welcome 😄

Hb20034 years ago

I honestly have never been this shocked in my life

13ga• in reply toHb20034 years ago

frankly - i'm shocked that people are shocked!!!!

i'm shocked at how shocked I AM !!!!

you'd think i would have learned by now to expect this...but nope - here i am shocked too!!!

it's not like any of this is a surprise!! it was foretold by the king himself!!!

and yet here we both are surprised!

lol - go figure huh?

Hb2003• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Yep ☹️ honestly watched the whole coverage

13ga• in reply toHb20034 years ago

i watched alot of it too.... seriously scary crap!

Hb2003• in reply to13ga4 years ago

it is and people should not be afraid to say how they feel because everyone is affected

13ga• in reply toHb20034 years ago

dammmm freakin right!!!!!! U SAID IT H!!!!

👍👍👏👏🎉💜💜💜

Shilohlove• in reply to13ga4 years ago

I don’t watch news and do not keep up with politics because of anxiety. What happened today?

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Hey R. “Acceptance is powerful. Once we accept reality, our anger tends to decrease. The painful situation loses the power it has over us. While the pain doesn’t go away, the suffering does”🙏

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

K - i swear i should start writing down whatever you say!!!

i agree about the acceptance - and i know that... but i don't seem to know how to gain that acceptance!!

i keep telling myself to accept... but i am one seriously stubborn sob!!!!

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

What possible can you achieve or change by NOT ACCEPT things as they are?! You can accept simply by stop denying it and acknowledge it is reality.

Downandout123• in reply to4 years ago

But how do you get to the point that you CAN accept things as they are? There are a few things in my life I was not able to accept, and here I am still miserable. But I can't MAKE MYSELF accept certain things. Do you know what I'm saying?

• in reply toDownandout1234 years ago

You have to accept the pain, accept the wound. The only reality you have is your existence at the moment. Let go the resistance.

Dolphin14• in reply to4 years ago

That's so true. It is what it is. By not accepting what just happened we stay anxious and carry anger. That destroys our peace.

• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

Exactly. Accept ourselves as we are at the moment. That’s all it is.

• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

This is perfect.

Acceptance is a choice. I learned accept or don’t accept. Not accepting keeps me bound and it gives power over me. I let too much in my life have power over me, I don’t do it anymore and I’m at peace with most everything or can get there with a little mind shifting and change of attitude.

☕️☕️ for you. 🌺💜

Dolphin14• in reply to4 years ago

Totally agree. I dropped what I was doing today to watch the breaking news. Then I had to shut it off. I went immediately to my meditation.

I also let too much in my life disturb my inner peace. I had a discussion today with a friend upset about people breaking covid protocol. I told her I can't keep getting myself worked up over what other people choose to do. I've accepted people are going to do what they want. My lack of acceptance was just leaving me angry and unsettled. I can't do that anymore.

☕️☕️Thank you Roxie. I always accept coffee

• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

I was outraged. Not gonna lie, but politics doesn’t really have a profound effect on my life.

Covid is my primary concern. I’ll just keep my self safe and let others choose. I can’t control others behaviors, I’ll be tapped out and exhausted trying.

As far as today, I can worry endlessly for the future of my daughters and my grandchildren, but what does that get me? More anxious, depressed, etc. I’ve learned in life we adapt and overcome, I raised my kids to be free thinkers, resourceful and they have pretty good stable heads on their shoulders. I have faith things just find a way to work themselves out, maybe be stupid, but I cannot be bound by this, I’ll stop living. Not giving into it.

Hugs. 🤗🤗

Dolphin14• in reply to4 years ago

Not stupid at all. It's a way to keep ourselves centered. We can only control our own actions and our response to other people's actions.

We can't let others drain our inner peace.

• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

Thanks Dolphin. I never want to be too naive. I’m old enough and been through enough personally I consider what I went through in my past down right suffering and persevering some pretty serious personal wars, but I’m not letting my aging gracefully be effected by too much.

Not even my sleep. 💤💤💤 😁

Dolphin14• in reply to4 years ago

I've also been through some heavy things in my life. Im going to work on maintaining focus for my own health now. I am the priority.

On that note I'm going to get my one hour sleep before work today hahaha

• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

I’ll be doing my nap here soon too. Talk later. 💜💜💜💜

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

wow again roxie...

maybe i don't need to plug into the wall socket...

need to plug into your head!!!

can you do the vulcan mind meld? i'd like the shortcut mind dump!

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

I’ve got an extra plugin to share. 😂

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

he!! yea count me in!!!

👍🤞🎉

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

My brain is like Hotel California, Once you check in you can never leave. 😂😂

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

omg !!! ME TOO!!!!!!

that's exactly my problem - i'm trapped in my own head-hotel CA; and i can't get out!!!!!!

this was sooo much fun!! TYVM - i'm gonna go try trap some z's!

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Gonna try myself. Good night. 💤💤

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

wow roxie - that's another great way to look at it...

i HAVE given too much power away!

so you're saying i need to take back some power....

now where'd i put my knife and that electrical cord...........

...

so how do you practice mind shifting, and attitude adjustment?

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

You have no idea what I’ve been through to get here. It’s taken me years and years of hard work, I’ll just say that.

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

sign me up, sensei!

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Hahaha. Love it. 💜💜💜

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

soo true - i guess my problem w/ accepting is that the sh*t that's happening has moved SOOO FAR away from believable reality - it's difficult for me to accept...

maybe that's another way of saying i have trouble accepting how UN-real, reality has become!!!

maybe i'm afraid of accepting this un-real reality.... because if i start to accept such unreality - maybe next - i'll accept flying pigs and rainbow unicorns... and then - i'll be denying science, and listening to voodoo doctors... wait - i think i mixed up my realities again.... and then .. or maybe now .. i'll be ready for a nice rubber room somewhere quiet!!!

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Daz egoistic talking! Don’t try to pretend you are not this or that. Simply accept this is who you are NOW. You exist Daz all through breathing. One breath at a time.

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

yea... but i can be impatient.... 2 breaths is faster than 1...

• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Back to square one now Rob. You just erased everything I said 🤣🤣🤣🤣People will only hear when they are ready to hear!

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

yea - i know... 1 breath.... 2 breath....

Dolphin14• in reply to13ga4 years ago

I know what you mean. Shocked but not shocked. Just when we thought we had seen it all something worse happens.All we can do is hope the right thing is done moving forward.

It's been a very upsetting day

13ga• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

yes dolphin! yes!!

i've started questioning my own intelligence...

for 4 years it seems every day i've been shocked yet again - and yet after 1 year - shouldn't i be expecting the next shock, and NOT be shocked - and yet each is enough beyond the last - that i'm still shocked!!

so clearly i'm NOT learning from history! or .... IDK.... it's getting kinda convoluted upstairs - and it wasn't that easy peasy to start with!!

💜

Dolphin14• in reply to13ga4 years ago

I think we are just hoping the last shock was the final shock and then the next shock comes

It's been constant bombardment of episodes

Hb20034 years ago

A lot of people are

4 years ago

It’s all very scary. I feel your anger too.

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

tx, butticups!!

i know i shuoldn't - not like i can do anything bout it...

and yet... here i am...

at least 1 thing has improved....

i AM getting past the anger faster than i was in the past....

i'm already starting to cool down a bit....

Dolphin14• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Talking about it does help.

13ga• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

yes it does! - oh if only i could!!! (w/o threat of being banned)

🙃😬😬😬

Dolphin14• in reply to13ga4 years ago

Keep it to what it is. Talk of our feelings. Yes we have strong feelings but if you go too deep into the episode it will get taken down.

Dolphin14• in reply to13ga4 years ago

I don't think this is political in nature and I hope it doesn't get censored.We all know what happened. We are not taking sides or putting out negativity with names etc

We are sharing our feelings and learning things from each other

That's why we are here.

13ga• in reply toDolphin144 years ago

abso---lutely!!!

4 years ago

Oh 13ga...breathe breathe breathe.Ive heard the saying"This too shall pass",Well its feeling like a kidney stone the size of a car atm.So...huggies for everyone🤗

Peace n love😊✌❤

We shall all hold each other up till it passes,as it will.

13ga• in reply to4 years ago

TY hippo!!

i'm tryin!

and i like that we hold ea other up till it passes....

but... we def. gonna need a bigger toilet!!!!!

Dolphin144 years ago

Great post. Thank you

Tikirob4 years ago

Today’s chaos added to the anxiety of an already anxious year. Even a normally calm person could feel like of losing it.

The event today will have repercussions for years to come. I just hope that access to affordable mental health services has gotten better by then.

Thank you for being brave and starting this post. I too want to vent even if it’s to say it’s hard to work on feeling better mentally in an unstable environment.

And when that shaky place is the country you live in it’s not like you can just move to a different one.

As corny as this sounds, and yes I was complaining and cursing and yelling at the news, so I have a tough time doing it, but a good person once told me in times like these, “what does love look like in this situation”, whether it’s just being good to yourself, a neighbor or friend, or saying a prayer,

I’ve been getting a lot of good advice on HU to draw to deal with anxiety, so tonight although I want to just be upset and yell at the wall I will try to draw the Sistine Chapel in stick figures then hopefully get to bed.

I wish you a better tomorrow and a great February, hopefully by then we will have less worries like this.

13ga4 years ago

faux !!!!

SOOOOOOO what you said!!!!!!!

"it's about common decency, and humanity"

and we seem to be losing more and more everyday....

hopefully this new year we'll see a swing back in the other direction...

X'd...

13ga4 years ago

omg, faux!!!

are you in my head!!!!!?????

get out! get out fast! for your own good!!!! save yourself!!!!

faux - you had me at 'root causes' !!! and you only drew me in further with each sentence! like a siren's call, you drew me in with what could be my own words!

i think it's gonna take ALOT more than a few years. what concerns me most - is actually not the racist, xenophobic, fascist, and anti-science mindsets in the gov... but the support of those mindsets in the populace!!! and not just the support - but the LEVEL of support!! it's far beyond my worst nightmare - and every time i corrected my estimate upward - i grossly underestimated the correction!!!!!!

all that has me questioning my own abilities to assess the situation!

you are clearly aware of the bigger picture... these are all the "behind the scenes" tidbits, that leave me thinking - we're beyond fixing.

there's simply too much wrong. too little control in the hands of the people - which doesn't matter anyway - because too few of the people are aware of all the problems - and you can't fix the awareness problem - because so few WANT to be aware!!!!

i seriously don't think it's doable.... but i'd LOVE for you to argue against me, and prove me wrong! please - prove me wrong!!!

socratesanne4 years ago

Hope you all stay healthy. Do not let this tragedy affect your health. Speak up for injustices or who else will. Let it our in healthy ways and there is nothing better than speak your truth instead of hide behind fear. Nothing that happened yesterday was due to injustice, but merely a need to rule others and gain power. History tells that does not work, but sure there are many who would disagree. We are not alone here.

Hb20034 years ago

I hope that your doing alright I am still a little bit shaken

Hb20034 years ago

let’s hope ❤️☮️

Hb20034 years ago

I agree ❤️ We have to be better honestly we have to show what being American truly means

Hb20034 years ago

Exactly this event will change how other people think of us as Americans we need to prove them wrong

Hb20034 years ago

We do and we can only do that if we work together speak up and stand for what’s right

Hb20034 years ago

that is true we must be kind to each other no matter what differences we have ❤️☮️