Looking for kind motivational words and support

[coriandercornsilk]

Hello, My story begins with alot of not beeing heard, seen and not getting space to meet my needs. My whole life i have been trying to fit in but never seemed to get it quite right and always have been struggling with stress and mental health. I am now in older age aware of beeing a highly sensitive person and this means i feel everything intensely and my surroundings affect me deeply. Intense joy and appreciation but also intens sadness and stress. Just basic life and everyday are giving me so much stress, there is so much sounds in a city, the people and their energies, the always having to awalable, and the feeling of living in a society that was not created for me. Long story short with a lot of things happening, alot more of hard steps back rather than fourth, this feeling of not beeing in controll, just having to survive and react to emergencys have me in an overwhelmed feeling of lack of controll an stress.

Progress is of course not linejar and setbacks are natural, but am now looking for support in a community to keep going and following my rutines that i know help. It is just difficult to do it all completely alone.

Regards a stressed and sensitive soul

[Beavis2022]

Hi, I'm so sorry you're suffering, do you have depression? Maybe finding a good counselor - not easy - would help you. I'm just like you - older, feeling anxious/depressed, except I don't get the positive feelings like you do. My only support, really, is writing here & communicating with people like myself. Keep on writing here - it helps.

[Bigoldogsmiles]

Hi Coriander, I'm sorry to you're having a hard time. I am similar to you in lot of ways. My son says I am an empath. I wear my heart on my sleeve and have been called an old soul. I don't like big stores, loud music and I get overwhelmed by large groups of people. I tend to like a lot of solitude and quiet activities. I have always been this way even as a child.

I used to think there was something wrong with me, but now, I think I am exactly who I am supposed to be. Beautifully and purposely made. The same can be said for you. I wish you all the best in your healing journey!

[Teaandcats]

I'm sorry to hear you are finding things tough. I've never felt like ive 'fit in' either and in the past year have come to learn that I am a Highly Sensitive Person too.

I remember as a child I used really look after my teddy bears and dolls as I felt like they had felt things like pain and emotions too. Now I'm in my 30s I'm still the same with some stuff, like plants in the garden is one example. I'm an empath to the point to where I feel others emotions.

It sounds like we might experience being a HSP a slightly different way. It has its drawbacks but I do think it is quite unique and special in that we get to experience the world in this way (although maybe not when you're in a busy place!)

I'm having therapy and have recently changed onto a new antidepressant to see if that helps with my sleep and my anxiety.

Sending you support in your healing journey.