Question About Sadness

[Japan2015]

So the question I'm about to ask a little bit of background summary. I was abused sexually as a child from my earliest memories to about the age of 12 confronted more or less of those feelings. Told parents about happen. Still growing still evolving emotionally and as an individual.

So here's the question. I searched through my memories. I honestly cannot think of a time I cried just cuz I was sad. However, I can't count more times than anything. I've cried out of sadness and frustration.

I didn't cry when I lost my great-grandmother I was close to. I didn't cry when I lost my grandmother I was close to. I didn't cry when my own father who I was very close to died. Every time I knew I wanted to cry I knew I should cry but I couldn't.

People of the community here. What do you think?

[Hidden]

Happens to me too.

Because of your nervous system having mixed up stress responses, you sometimes react differently than others expect. Don't let anyone guilt trip you about it. You know yourself better than anyone else.

I sometimes smile in high stress moments. That is until someone yells at me for it. 😟 It's like I can't believe my eyes and ears.

[Japan2015 in reply to Hidden]

I understand that quite well. I have times where I don't think I'm doing anything wrong. I'm just having a good time. Somebody says something and then oh the world ends. LOL

[Japan2015 in reply to Japan2015]

When I say this I mean it honestly and generally. Thank you. For those of us like you and I that thank you does mean a difference and it definitely does for me and I hope it does for you.

[Hidden in reply to Japan2015]

Thank you.

Wednesday

[fauxartist]

I just think it's such a trauma to lose a loved one....that it's a sensory overload, and your mind is just shutting down because it cannot process that level of sadness. This happens to very sensitive people, and you never know.... you may just let out a torrent of tears over something that's just a small thing, and it's just really about finally letting out those repressed feelings.

[Japan2015]

Again, that's my own fault. I didn't learn about this helpful community to share in the correct place. As I mean, I apologize again for any triggers that may happen. That was absolutely again 110%. Not my intention. You did nothing wrong. You said nothing wrong. You thought nothing wrong. The only thing you did was support people like me, which is more than I can ever express. Thank you.