Random wave of depression and sadness

[mentalhealthandme]

The past few days I have randomly hit a low very hard out of nowhere. I've been doing everything I can to stay happy or at least content. One day I decided it was time to make myself go out of the house and do something. So I decided to walk to Starbucks and order myself a drink as an anxiety exposure. Due to my social anxiety these small things can be difficult. I ordered an iced coffee but no food because I was too anxious to make a decision on what to eat and if I wanted to spend money on it. Besides that I was okay and had a good outing.Anyway after I had my coffee and headed back home a deep wave of sadness overcame me completely out of nowhere. I felt like I needed to cry but couldn't. At the end of the day I decided to take a shower and while I sat in the shower I cried so hard I was hyperventilating. You know when you feel so low it's almost nauseating.

This unfortunately lasted a few days. Today I felt a little bit back to normal. For some reason I think the coffee triggered this. Everytime I have coffee (which I only drink as an occasional treat because of this) I feel terrible, But I can't be sure because I also have pmdd.

[Hidden]

I don't know anything about pmdd but obviously you are having a hard time. Well done for going out of your comfort zone And actively trying to improve your world xarre you on meds or having counselling?

[mentalhealthandme in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou. No no meds or counseling. It's been hard to get

[Hidden in reply to mentalhealthandme]

When things are hard they are even harder when you feel bad. So I commend you for still trying to get the help. I do understand the difficulties and I hope you don't think bad of me but my doctor has arranged something for me and I've not answered the phonecalls 3 times from the people I've asked for help from 🙈. I will definitely regret this when I get put to the end of the queue .

[BrainIsFull]

I'm sorry that you've been feeling so low! It sounds like some strong feelings needed to be let out. That's good that you could cry.

Getting coffee, maybe going to the cafe is maybe a trigger, bringing up something painful?

I'm sending you comfort and strength!💚

[mentalhealthandme in reply to BrainIsFull]

Thankyou so much 🤗

[BrainIsFull in reply to mentalhealthandme]

💚💚💚

[booksandblankets]

I definitely get this, and it's often how my depression creeps (or crashes) in. Sometimes a good cry makes me feel a little better. Maybe try getting something without caffeine? Like a decaf iced coffee? Maybe that can give you the sense of a treat without the negative effects of the caffeine.

[JosephDupuis1]

Hi, I have made the decision to stop drinking coffee now, because it is not good for sleep and can cause added anxiety even if it’s not that much. I personally would avoid Starbucks and only drink if it were the only option. I think they add feminising agents in their coffees, I am sure they had a feminising effect on my brain, a temporary effect. Now to a woman this may be worse due to them having already natural levels of oestrogen. I know these hormones can effect mood because I used to make powerful protein shakes and they were filled with these hormones, and I turned up to work and out of nowhere I just felt so sad and started thinking my mum had died, that night I researched those protein shakes and found out yep they contain boat loads of oestrogens, these hormones when taken in high levels cause emotional feelings, that do not correlate to reality.

Coffee is basically a drug, I do like the taste, but it’s not good for anxiety and other things, water is best.

[mentalhealthandme in reply to JosephDupuis1]

Yeah I've never been a big coffee drinker but even as an occasional treat it screws me up so no more for me. I hadn't had any since