i'm sorry

[guiffz]

this is more like a relief post than anything else

for basically the entirety of my life i've always felt that i had no friends was undisired, even though i was always surounded but people to talk and playwith

in 2021 i met someone that instantly connected with me, but it never was a romantic relationship, could say it was true friendship, two people that really enjoyed eachother, always looking forward to see, talk, play and do stuff in eachothers company

fast forwarding to this year, some unforseeing events occured and we got distant, in part because of me, i was (and i'm still) struggling with deppression and anxiety, and made some bad decisions, said some bad stuff and i could say we are no longer friends

they don't really have any interest in me anymore, don't come talk to me, at this point i don't know if i'm being crazy but it is sure to say that i lost the person i love the most

i've lost to myself

[gajh]

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