I’m void and numb and I know why

[Jamblue]

A long time ago I was robbed of a life by a narcissist. I have nothing inside me because anything I had or owned was sucked out of me, Knowledge, esteem, confidence, joy, ability, cognitive understanding, empathy, love, human contact.

NOTHING….I’m a shell of a human and I try to fill my body with stuff to make a human form but I’m filled with only garbage, pieces or crumbs that I picked up along my life.

I never feel Human.

[Dolphin14]

Jamblue

I was brain washed by a narcissist also.

Are you in therapy? You can get your life back, you don't have to continue living this way

Wishing you the best

🐬

[Jamblue in reply to Dolphin14]

trying to get GOOD therapy

Thank you

[Dolphin14 in reply to Jamblue]

I hope you can find someone. There are also many podcasts you can listen to etc. There is so much information out there now.

It's a difficult process to shut those things off and learn your worth.

Don't lose hope

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry - I know what it feels like to wonder if you're human. You need all kinds of support. Writing here will help. People will listen and understand, and reply to you. I've had a terrible, abusive marriage, but I had depression years before that. Keep on writing.....

[Jamblue]

ty for understanding.

[nchauf]

I am sorry you have been through that trauma. My mother was a narcissist and had borderline personality disorder. It was rough living with her and at times I felt like just a shell with no real life. What has helped me is finding my own identity and writing about those experiences I had. It is hard to rehash those feelings yet journaling them out helps me to work through them. I had to realize that her behavior was not my fault and that I didn't deserve her abuse. Hope this helps.

[Starrlight in reply to nchauf]

sounds like you are doing inner child work. Me too, I just got a new therapist and am working on my traumas.