It’s Been Awhile And My Mental Health Feels Worse

[bxgirlmom]

I haven’t posted in awhile because I started a new job last month and I’ve been focusing on that. I’m trying to adjust but it has been a struggle. Definitely having big time imposter syndrome because I come across as cheerful but internally I feel overwhelmed because I’m always anxious. I’ve been on Klonopin 2mg/daily for a year and I feel that it’s not working for me anymore.

Sometimes I wonder how can I go on living like this. I’m a wife, mother, sister, daughter and I try my best not to bother anyone because I’m the “strong” one.

Maybe I need to switch medications or doctors idk but feeling my heart pound my chest most of the day something has to give.

[mizzou7016]

Maybe you need to put yourself on the radar. It's ok to not be ok. It's ok to put yourself at the top of your priority list. Self care isn't selfish

[bxgirlmom in reply to mizzou7016]

Thank you for your reply. I know that’s a big part of my problems. I don’t allow a lot of time for myself and I feel like I’m always “ON”. Most days once 8pm hits I’m dying to go to sleep. I haven’t seen my friends in months. Me and hubby barely do dates anymore. I miss the old me so much.

[Shnookie]

please you do not need to feel like you are an imposter at work. I’m a concierge receptionist at a Senior Living Community 40 hours a week. When I go to work, part of me goes into an actress mode. I need to deal with the public. Once I get into the groove, I go with the flow. I get along with the seniors and it makes me feel good.

[bxgirlmom in reply to Shnookie]

Yes I’m trying to take different approaches to handle my social anxiety. I get along with everyone (so far lol); I think also my days are pretty long I’m up by 5:30am and can’t go to sleep until after I get my kids settled for bed. I have a lot of things to figure out.