Pain & Stressed

[PenguinQueen44]

I love my job, but today was really hard to handle.I am getting trained in a new task at work, but my back hurt really bad today.

The movement that I had to do caused my back to spasm and I was having sharp, stabbing pain. Every movement made the pain worse. I took pain killers but it did not help. I have to do this work tomorrow and I do not think I can do 5 more hours of this.

I am also having a hard time doing anything when I get out of work. Leaving the apartment is getting hard to do.

I had to take my car in and I was so stressed. I thought I might have to pay $2,000 for repairs, but I just had to replace filters. I was dreading the appointment and I pushed myself to go there.

I was worried that I would miss work and I would not have my car to get to work. Thankfully my coworker offered to give me a ride, if I needed it. I did not need the ride, but he was super supportive.

I was so relieved at the end...I just wanted a burger and fries. I stress ate.

Now I am worried that my debit card will not come in the mail in time.

I asked and it is supposed to be on the way. My current card expires in November and I have things I need to pay with debit card. The card is supposed to arrive by the 15th and I am freaking out. The bank people are really bad about giving consistent information.

I am just so done with stress!!!

[jbjacksoncfc]

sorry to hear that you're having such a rough time. i can relate, i've often described adulting life as a so-very-NOT-fun game of whack-a-mole. every single time ya knock one of those suckers down (for example by taking care of your car like you did), another one or few pops their stupid heads up! it makes coping & trying to just function with anxiety so very very difficult, and again, i'm sorry to hear that you're going through that. i would like to offer you this reassurance in the hope that it may help and encourage you: you are 'doing life' SOO much better than you think you are. keep on keeping on!