I know I post here all the time but the last two days are hell. I’ve had a horrible headache for over 24 hours and I drove to a waterfront resort yesterday to relax.
At the last minute my husband said he had commitments. So it is just my older autistic sister who is mentally around 8 yrs old.
I get it she doesn’t get packing for a trip. And to insert here we both inherited money when my dad passed so I can travel.
I pay for the resort, dinner gas everything. After we got to the gas station I told her as she stood there as if I should pay for it. I had told her she needs to bring money.
She manages her money like a boss. She watches every penny even mine when I spend it.
Then I had a lightbulb moment, did you bring your debit card? NO. Um, your credit card? NO. My head almost exploded and I felt chest pain. I wanted to skip the trip and go straight to the psych ward.
Then I took her to the bank and she withdrew money. I know she doesn’t want me to be mad at her. I tried to talk to her on the 4 hour drive but nothing. I thought we could bond but I just want to leave. The view of the boats and water are beautiful.
Then I had a friend who used me, my life, my illness as the class project and had enough material for two semesters. Someone here told me to look at it positively. How? When I feel betrayed, stabbed in the back? I told her my personal pain. She is no longer my friend as of yesterday.
I can’t do this any more. I really don’t. My son contacts me every day and he lives in AZ and my home is in the Midwest. My daughter believes I’m a danger to my grandson and it irks me that I am still paying her cell bill and she lives with her fiancé who is a millionaire.
Please don’t criticize me or I might swim to the middle of this lake and just sink.
Am I crazy?? What is wrong with me?