Stressed

[Nothingnoted]

 I called the hotline today. Trigger Warning went to do curbside pickup. saw a police car. Not suicidal Trigger Warning hit myself hard 5 times on the right side of my face. Whenever someone treats me bad or watches me suspiciously or laughs I take the self hatred on myself. i take it out on myself when my sister is not around. My job will not stop at anything to cause me pain and suffering. I told the hotline on a daily basis I think of the S word but i will not do anything because of my religion. I told them i will be just miserable for the rest of my life. Im going to see another therapist next week. It been really unbearable the last two years no peace, no hope anymore

[Sylvain-]

> I told them i will be just miserable for the rest of my life.

That is a feeling I share right now.

I know that countless self-help websites say "you just have to decide to change". But I don't have enough energy to do it. And change what for? Could it really be better or would it be another sword strike into water?

Once again I would like to find better words than simply saying you are not alone. But rest assured we understand you.

I sincerely hope your new therapist will help!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

Thank you, Sylvain. Im here for you also🤗 I hope you can get some sleep soon. There are times when find myself staring into space. I wish you were feeling. Just wanted to say Im here for you There are a times when I cant give any feedback. It really nice to have a friend in France. Do you ever watch You tube music videos. Theres a really nice one by the Little River Band. Called cool change

[Starrlight]

❤️💙💜

[Nothingnoted in reply to Starrlight]

🤗🤗🤗💖💖💖💖🤗🤗🤗🤗

[AnxiousSilver]

"hit myself hard 5 times on the right side of my face. "

Truth be told, I've been going through some rough stuff lately myself, but I also kinda wish I could be there once whenever you feel the need to do this, so I could just hug you, and tell you that, "It's gonna be OK".