Mentally challenged

[Dancelady63]

For over a year now since my Mom passed away, I feel alone and cut off from the world. I am a coward and can’t get anything accomplished anymore. My partner who is way older than me has to do almost everything in and around the house. All I do is want to stay in bed and hope to fall asleep and die. I have been speaking to a therapist but it didn’t really help much.

[optimismrus]

Sorry you're stuck. Grief can have a powerful hold on us. It sounds like you're trying to wake up to the world again and don't know what steps to take. Talking to a therapist is good and finding the right antidepressant is too. It could be that helping your mother thru her transition gave you the feeling of purpose you longed for, and now you're left empty. Don't give up yet. You're sharing your feelings with us and that's a step. You gave your mother the loving care she needed til the end...now it's time to love yourself. You're stronger and more loved than you think. 🥰

[Dancelady63 in reply to optimismrus]

Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I hope you are doing well yourself. Yes grieving is a normal part of life and I am trying to hang in there as good as possible. I just have a huge self esteem crisis as well. I weigh 180 and I don’t feel great. I go for walks but it takes more than that. I cry and long for my figure 20 years ago. It’s just rough for me right now.

[Pastafox]

Hold fast Dancelady63 do what you need to get your rhythm back I find it helpful to open every door and window and let the wind blow through I know its painful but it will be over sooner than later its something I practiced for a long time now my depprsion just sits there in beded in my brain and appears it ugly head stay strong my art is my blessing when able I get angry with myself when I unable to create stay safe

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[Dancelady63 in reply to Pastafox]

Thank you for your uplifting words and yes at the moment I am trying to hang in there and working through my issues. Keep uplifting others with your kind words. Thank you so much.

[samack]

It sounds Ike you have what is called complicated grief. It is not unusual to be in deep depression after a big loss. You should be working with someone who can help you. Not every therapist is good or the right match. Find yourself someone new and see if you need a med to help you through. Best to you

[samack]

Your focus on weight and your feeling low esteem will get addressed in your therapy, but if you are grieving intensely, work on that first. You're doing a good job by reaching out.

[Dancelady63 in reply to samack]

Thank you so much for your response and yes I am trying to focus on my grieving first and then taking care of my well being outwardly. I hope you are doing well yourself and what meds are you taking if you don’t mind me asking.

[samack]

Oh, for 25 years I was on Prozac, and then things got more complicated and I eventually became treatment resistant. You will only need 1 med, look up SSRIs and there's a bunch that are commonly prescribed.