Today felt shaken mentally

[Roukaya]

I have learnt what we think of ourselves is reflected externally

Our value and our true worth is reflected by our current circumstances

I realise unless we truly want change it has to come from within us for the changes to be seen

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Peace is an inside job. So is self acceptance. I need to look at myself as honestly as I can to be comfortable in my own skin. If I accept myself it’s easy to accept others as they are. It’s not what happens to me it’s my attitude about it.

All those are interesting principles which are extremely difficult to practice but worth the work. AND I can’t do it without help from my professionals and/or my peeps.

[Roukaya in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you for your reply

Being at peace with ourselves is essential and this becomes self apparent when we meet others

Naturally we are drawn to those who have inner peace and inner confidence

[Bluetj]

I can't seem to be at peace with myself because of the mental illness that I deal with. When I am around others, I always wonder who can see the mental illness in me and it makes me feel ashamed or very uncomfortable. I don't even know who I am anymore. Sometimes I see the old me trying to come out but then something happens & I can't handle it so the mental illness surfaces and I am back at square one.

[Roukaya in reply to Bluetj]

I can understand this

It is so sad that mental illness or depression out of no where can make us feel like this

[Suzymonkey]

This is so true. I can understand as I came to the same realization lately. I tended to jeopardize my relationships in the past. I am with an amazing person who truly loves me and trusted in my ability. And I was so stubborn, trying to prove my worth (that this is who I am and I won’t change!) Slowly over the 3 years I have lost his trust with repeated fights mostly resulting from my insecurities and my inability to change. Through the practice of meditation, I am slowly coming to own my fault and work on myself. Trying to listen others to grow out of this tendency.. it is difficult but I think knowledge is a bliss. We now have a time limit set on our relationship (we have till end of year) and if we both cannot commit fully by then, we will part. I understand I cannot control his trust in me or how he perceives my commitment to get over mental illness. What I know now is all I can do is to focus on myself and hopefully the change will be reflected on how I am perceived. Thank you for this post, it’s comforting to know others are in the similar place.