In a nut shell, I was married for 30 years to a good man but self medicated too much and let his depression take over. We grew to be just best friends and nothing more so had a mutual divorce 5 year ago. About 4 years ago I met and fell for another man. I moved 2 hours away to be with him and things went downhill.I miss my friends, family and old job. I've been here going on 2 years and hate it. I find myself depressed more often and even quit a job due to anxiety. I find myself comparing this man with the old one and this man can't hold a candle. But I love him for being him, that's what brought me here.
I find myself depressed, sick, anxious more often than ever. It consumes me. Maybe I should just move home? I don't know if it's here with him or if it's me.