Some thoughts of getting back with my ex are spinning in my head. I can't get them away. The problem is that I can't live with him. We are way too different. I don't have romantic feelings either, but I am easily attached.
I know I shouldn't do it, but this thoughts are getting stronger.
I am too afraid of being alone and this tricks me.
Hi, hon. It's okay. I could have written this because of my situation (no ex, but similar with spinning thoughts of someone I've lost a friendship with). It will get better. I promise. It sure as heck doesn't feel like it, but it does. You are grieving. (Before you say anything here, grieving doesn't just happen when someone dies. It happens when anything traumatic to you happens). Grief has no timeline. Please trust the process you're going through (because a process is exactly what you're in). I know it's a "want to pull my hair out" frustration. You'll get there, though. Can I ask if you're working with a therapist?
I am not, I can't find a good one in my country and I'm actually leaving abroad for university in 2 weeks
Oh ok, so you're the one leaving (I remember reading that someone was). First of all, congratulations! And second of all, it's my hope that this will provide a good distraction for you.
TW
Going back is never the answer. I kept going back to an abusive husband, and it ended in a suicide. Please, don't do it!
Cheers Midori
Slowly losing faith again…
Tension headaches 
Struggling with medication
i do not want to be a mom. 
