Some thoughts of getting back with my ex are spinning in my head. I can't get them away. The problem is that I can't live with him. We are way too different. I don't have romantic feelings either, but I am easily attached.
I know I shouldn't do it, but this thoughts are getting stronger.
I am too afraid of being alone and this tricks me.
Hi, hon. It's okay. I could have written this because of my situation (no ex, but similar with spinning thoughts of someone I've lost a friendship with). It will get better. I promise. It sure as heck doesn't feel like it, but it does. You are grieving. (Before you say anything here, grieving doesn't just happen when someone dies. It happens when anything traumatic to you happens). Grief has no timeline. Please trust the process you're going through (because a process is exactly what you're in). I know it's a "want to pull my hair out" frustration. You'll get there, though. Can I ask if you're working with a therapist?
I am not, I can't find a good one in my country and I'm actually leaving abroad for university in 2 weeks
Oh ok, so you're the one leaving (I remember reading that someone was). First of all, congratulations! And second of all, it's my hope that this will provide a good distraction for you.
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Going back is never the answer. I kept going back to an abusive husband, and it ended in a suicide. Please, don't do it!
Cheers Midori
Have you tried the things I suggested to help yourself make friends without seeming clingy?
Cheers, Midori
I’ve been trying, but there aren’t many opportunities for the moment
I'm a little confused, did you mean you aren't actually on campus yet? Will you be living on College grounds?
I meant when you get there, there is usually a few days to allow folk to find their way around and get the info on what is available for students in the way of clubs, interest groups etc., and chances to get the books you will need before the classes start for real. In the UK we call it 'Freshers Week'. Quite a few friendships grow from Freshers week, and in your classes you will find folk with similar interests to you.
Cheers, Midori
Well, no, there wasn’t place for me in the university campus, so I had to book a room in a student dormitory on far from the campus. People there don’t really want to talk or meet. I stay alone in the « meeting rooms » where students must relax, have fun, talk… But there is never anybody there so I stay there alone and work on my own projects. I tried to talk to some people I saw, but they weren’t into talking. I met a part of my class, I talked to 3 people, one of them was more into the talk. I guess we will see
That's unfortunate, makes it harder for you to be farther away from the centre of the 'action' so to speak, maybe you will get to know folk in your majors as you get better known. You could also try the College Counsellor's service for some support.
Cheers, Midori
they didn’t say anything about clubs and groups, I won’t be surprised if there aren’t any…
Usually the clubs and groups are set up by the students themselves. If there are noticeboards you can post on it would be worth stating your interests, and see if you get results.
I haven't met a college yet which doesn't have at least a Chess Club, or a movie club.
Cheers, Midori
Am I evil? Help me please 
I get suicide
Some pieces of me
Will this ever stop
Psychiatric Evaluation
