I don’t have the strength

[Theloudone]

Today is one of those days I don’t have the strength. I don’t have the strength to fight my intrusive thoughts, I don’t have the strength to be the best mom I can be, I don’t have the strength to fight the thoughts telling me they would be better off without me. I hate these days.

[Plantlover14]

I’m so sorry you feel this way but nothing is forever! Sit with these feelings and maybe even talk to them and find some compassion for them. Tomorrow is a new day. You are not alone. I know exactly what you are talking about. And they really are the worst feelings.

Lots of love

[Theloudone in reply to Plantlover14]

Thank you.

[Plantlover14 in reply to Theloudone]

They would absolutely not be better off without you. I’m sure you know that’s the anxiety and depression talking but that’s not real life. There’s going to be better days ahead. Maybe need a change in meds or new therapist?

[Theloudone]

yes my depression and anxiety have been trigger by recent trauma but I’m scared to go up on meds

[jikreamer]

One day at a time, one hour at a time, one breath at a time and remember you've made it through 100% of your worst days. Battle on dear. Prayers.

[Theloudone]

thanks for that reminder. I know I’ve been through worse days

[Riki_]

Don't give into your feelings, you're not inferior of them, take things at a time. Never try to be harsh on yourself, take a step back and mentally rest. Realizing your stress as a parent is great, but you're own well being matters too.

[Shnookie]

So sorry that U R going thru this. Unfortunately, there are days like crap 💩. Your life is precious and U R a good mom. Sometimes, kids need to learn that mommy isn’t feeling good. Don’t beat yourself up

[Theloudone in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you. Yes my kids definitely see that sometimes mommy is sad. And even though I’m crying I still tell them that I will be okay and mommy just needs to be sad right now.

[Shnookie in reply to Theloudone]

That is an excellent answer to give to them

[Hidden]

If those thoughts make you anxious, they're not "You"Take care

[Theloudone in reply to Hidden]

You’re right

[Hidden in reply to Theloudone]

Hope you are doing even a little better today!

[Theloudone in reply to Hidden]

I am, today is a better day.

[Phoenix-africa]

Hi. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know how you feel and what you're going through. I battled depression for many years and even attempted several times. I defeated depression and suicide and you will do the same. You have the best reason to keep on living, your children. They need you and they will not be better off without you. The fact that you came here for support means you want to keep on fighting and living for your children. I truly wish you the best and if you ever have those intrusive thoughts, know you will always have this community for support. Sending love your way 💓💓❤️❤️💓

[Theloudone in reply to Phoenix-africa]

Thank you I really appreciate it. I hate that my mind tries to trick me. It’s hard not to give in when I’m already vulnerable in other areas.

Thanks for the support

[AutumnLeaves1111]

It’s okay to have an “off” day. Allow yourself that grace. 💚 Maybe spend the day pouring back into yourself. You do so much for others, it’s not selfish to do for yourself, give to yourself.

I like to think of the things I’m grateful for when I’m having a tough time shaking certain thoughts and feelings. Maybe try listing A-Z of Gratitude and see if that doesn’t help some, Love.

[Theloudone in reply to AutumnLeaves1111]

Yes that’s true. Thank you!

[Mustloveanimals]

that was me yesterday.

[Theloudone in reply to Mustloveanimals]

we got through it!

[Teaching]

Sorry you are going through this. Is it possible that you just lie down and rest.

[Joseph46]

I had one of those days today. It was so bad I felt like my skin was crawling. I hope you are having a better day today. I hope after a good nights sleep I will feel better.

[Theloudone in reply to Joseph46]

ugh I’m sorry your day was like that.

My day today was a lot better. I hope also with sleep you will wake up feeling a little better too.