Strength

[kalesalad]

I hate when ppl tell me ‘you’re a strong person you can do anything’ as I’m crying to them telling them how I’m feeling. You don’t understand. I’m strong on the outside. I can lift weights heavier than me, I can run on a twisted ankle and I can withstand a paper cut. But inside I’m seriously broken. There’s barely anything being held up in here man. There’s so much going on in my mind there’s no way to organize the sad, happy, angry, joyful thoughts floating around. I’m locked in this prison in my mind and I’m being torn a part by my own self. I’m not strong in my mind sometimes. I’m broken and I don’t see myself that way sometimes. So please. Stop saying I’m a strong person. Yes I’m a leader but does that mean I’m a strong person all the time? No. I’m out there sometimes but does that make me a strong person all the time? No.

When I’m bawling my eyes out at you having an episode in my mind I’m not STRONG.

“You’re strong because you always bring yourself back to reality.”

“You’re strong because despite your past can you use it to grow.”

Tell me WHY I’m strong. Remind me so that I can FEEL that strength again. Remind me because no matter how strong I am depression can really kick you down and make you forget.

Sometimes it’s not just our job as the depressed to get ourselves out of our “funk”. It’s draining to pretend to be okay. It’s draining to do just be social activity and we’re having to do it everyday - school, work, friends, public transit, shopping, restaurants, etc. - THE FIGHT IS NEVER OVER. And I have the right to be tired sometimes and forget about how far I’ve come but just remind me because I’ll bounce right back.

[Hidden]

I can relate. I'm very strong, assertive and get stuff done with my family and on the job but sometimes I want someone to check on me, take care of me for a change. I can't be everything for everyone all the time. I deserve to break down when I need it but no one understands and thinks I am fine because I always pull through. I just want and need some attention every once in a while too. I am strong but I need someone to comfort me too. I have no friends or family. I feel alone and some days I want to give up too. Why do some get to take a break and be caudled and I don't?

[Timmypliskin in reply to Hidden]

Your not alone...

[tppppppp]

I'm trying to learn thru my cbt that it isn't people on the outside you need validation from (self esteem) it's yourself you need it from (self worth)

[Hidden in reply to tppppppp]

Very true!

[Kat63]

THIS. I agree with every word you said.

When I try to tell people I have a problem with anxiety and I need help, sometimes I feel like they aren’t taking it seriously. I’d like to do something about my problem before it gets worse. How bad does it have to get before people will answer my cries for help?