First time ever on a MH forum but first time for everything 🙏

[Geeewar]

Good day to everyone who has managed to get through another day or at least half way through the day. Every single day at the moment is a desperate challenge but I’m grateful for everything otherwise I’ll be resentful and become a victim.

I’m suffering from chronic anxiety, fear and depression but by the grace of God I’m still functioning but feel like I’m hanging on by my fingernails. I can’t stop projecting but I’m still here praying for a brighter future for everyone.

The world we are living in is very ill and only through love and compassion can it heal. We too are a part of this healing process or part of the illness. Sometimes I can’t see a way forward but I won’t stop having faith in God.

No judging please I’m just wanting all of us to heal and be kinder to ourselves and each other 🙏♥️🕊️

[Plantlover14]

amen! 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[Geeewar in reply to Plantlover14]

Yes my friend 🙏♥️🕊️

[Dolphin14]

Geewar

Welcome to the community.

This is a kind, supportive community. I hope you find it helpful

🐬

[Geeewar in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you 🙏 ♥️🕊️

[Jensen4life]

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[Cookie2217]

This is a beautiful post. What a wonderful uplifting sentiments for everyone to stick together and hope for the best for each other. You're exactly right when you say this world is very sick because it is in one way or another there's so many people that do so many evil things it's awful. I just had an experience where my sister yes my own sibling say really awful and untrue things about myself and my husband to our other sister. My sister Maureen who is the one that I am no longer speaking to at this point has made up stories throughout our lifetime and embellishes most of the time and when I spoke to my other sister Kelly tonight who kind of feels like she's in the middle and I don't want her to feel like that but it's hard because she always brings Maureen up to me and wants to talk about what happened between us I know that she has good intentions Kelly because she wants us to talk again but to be honest with you I don't really know if I can because I don't trust Maureen anymore. My sister stole my husband's guitar and hid it in her closet and when I went and found it in there she said "see there you go right to that closet you must have put it in there then" I know for sure that I did not and my husband wouldn't have flipped out for over an hour if he had put it in there which is what my sister Kelly asked if either one of us could have forgotten that we put it in there and that's just ludicrous and ridiculous and it's almost like she is so good at lying that she's trying to turn my other sister Kelly against my husband and I it's very sick. When we were younger she swears that she beat up a girl in my defense and that never happened ever and Kelly asked if I ever called her on it and I said no because I was the younger sister and Maureen never listens to me and dismisses what I say and my thoughts on things. Kelly said that my sister Maureen is very judgmental and I agree with her totally 100 percent. There's 10 years difference between Kelly and I and only 2 years difference between Maureen and I but I feel closer to Kelly and can talk to her because she never judges me and is a good kind person. Maureen on the other hand is very sneaky and judgmental as I said before and is dismissive too blunt and thinks that she's perfect which she is not no one is and she brags about her son so much that it makes my other sister Kelly roll her eyes. Kelly says everyone has kids that they would love to talk about on and on and on but Maureen does it to a fault and I agree. Maureen thinks that her relationship with her son is fantastic but what I see is a mother who is overbearing who treats him like an adult one minute and then a child the next minute she sends this poor kid mixed messages he's only 17 years old and I think that he is heavily influenced by what my sister says. I was told tonight that my nephew Robert Maureen's son was accepted to college and I'm very grateful for that because I feel that he would do better being away from her for a while because he needs to grow up she does everything for him and he does absolutely nothing around the house and she lets him get away with it. Maureen treats him more like a friend and a confidant than a son. Robert knows a lot more than he needs to know a lot of the time because she tells him everything which I think is wrong. She needed to let Robert be a kid and she didn't because her and her ex Robert's father are very dysfunctional and there is an active restraining order against him currently. Robert and Maureen have been to a lot with Robert's father and I do feel for them I always have on that aspect I've even taken off of work and driven up to Pennsylvania to go to court with her when she had to go against her ex to be of support to her and be there for her. I just don't get the same in return she's not there for me and treated my husband and I very poorly when we lived with her for 10 months. I lost my job and I had to resort to living in her basements which no one was happy about but she didn't make it easy instead she was trying to tell me what to do all the time and I'm 54 years old I don't need anybody telling me what I need to do and what I don't need to do. She's a take charge type of a person and while she can certainly do that with her own life I would have appreciated it if she didn't try to insert herself into mine as far as decision making goes. My sister Maureen also went as far as to accuse my husband of trying to poison her dog which is completely out of line and totally false that is a serious accusation and my husband and I are both animal lovers and he would never ever hurt an animal so I don't know where she's coming from with that I think she's just saying things to make us look really bad in front of other people so they believe what she says. I don't even know why I'm telling you all of this but it just came out of me so sorry for the long message. Anyways that's what's going on with me. Thank you so much for being positive because I definitely needed a positive post today. Here's hoping that there's better days in front of us all.

[Geeewar in reply to Cookie2217]

You have a lot going on my dear friend and you must look after yourself otherwise you can’t help anyone else.

Families are incredibly challenging at times I’ve been through it myself but I’m still here and still trying to make things work for everyone. I never hold onto resentment or anger they will only manifest ugliness in myself.

I have 3 beautiful daughters who are the focus of my life and I wake up every morning and thank God and Jesus Christ that I get to spend another day with them.

Make no mistake that the world cannot continue as it is. This deceitful greed and lust that people crave is the seed of the evil. The devil is real and he’s very active.

Share your kindness and today do one small act of kindness to a complete stranger.

Sending you positive vibes from Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 🕊️💯🙏♥️