Running out of options

[Nutella06]

I’m going to get a therapist and I have a book on CBT. I started taking Wellbutrin less than 2 weeks ago and I’m not feeling any benefits from it. I still can’t believe I went through 36 treatments of Brainsway TMS and I’m not feeling any benefits from that! I’m still emotionally traumatized and I need to be set free. I think the only way for me to find answers is through a spiritual healer. My life is complete chaos and even sorting out my mail is a task. I’m drowning in guilt and now shame. I feel like such a leech and it’s not like I haven’t tried at plenty of jobs but, my mental health always ruins my day to day function and takes away any future in advancing in any job. I have no confidence or self esteem and I do think about death a lot. I’m disabled and miserable but, a shred of hope is still going.

[mdowning81]

Grasp onto that shred of hope, every climb out of the pit starts with one grasp and then another.

[RAB888]

Good luck. If the CBT doesn't help give me a shout, I may have something even better ☺

[Hidden]

Hang on to that hope!! That’s such a good thing to have. I don’t think you’ve been on the Wellbutrin long enough yet to tell a difference. Give it another month or so. My spirituality helps me so much! If I don’t pray and meditate every morning, I don’t feel right. It’s imperative to see the positives in every situation and express gratitude for all your blessings, and yes, you have plenty! I’m grateful to have survived this day and any other day. Also, don’t live in the past or the future, but in today only thinking of the things you have control over. If you have no control, let it go. Don’t indulge in replaying scenes over and over again in your head regarding past events. This breeds negativity and resentments. Stay away from anger! I wish you peace!!

[jkl5500]

I know we've talked about this in the past, but have you considered ECT?

[Nutella06 in reply to jkl5500]

That’s the last option. I’ve had a TBI and already have a terrible memory. I do realize that my memory might improve if my neurotransmitters are corrected. I’m going to try therapy and some psychedelic plant based medicine with a guide and see if that does the trick.

[laurafazz]

I’m not familiar with Brainsway TMS, but I know with meds like Wellbutrin it can take a while to get the dosage right and feel the effects. I’m on Wellbutrin and Prozac and if I remember correctly it took several months to get the dosage right with my doctor. I did CBT for several issues I was dealing with a few years ago and it helped me so much. Try to be patient with yourself. Spiritually healing could help you feel better too, or maybe at least bridge the gap until the meds kick in.