Everything we go through now is preparing us for something greater soon. Part of me believes this. Mostly I don’t believe. I’m lost...where’s God? I can’t keep going like this.
...Part of me keeps fantasizing about ending it. I need relief. Right now I don’t know how to see straight... I’m lost...
...After every difficulty comes ease...
...I’m still lost. Life moves too fast ; I don’t know if I can keep keeping up. Things just keep getting worse. I feel like I have nothing left in me to move on with. I pray... but caught in a web of disbelief...