well, time has passed since the last time i was here. it hasn’t gotten better. the feelings i feel are just very strong & combined with the emptiness i feel from the depression, end up making things worse. ive come to terms that i cant be with her but my heart is really aching. i cant stomach the future that lies ahead of us. i keep falling into emotional breakdowns then moving on as if nothing happened because the emptiness decides to consume me at my weakest. my faith in God has not faltered though. i have grown closer with him in my recent days. ive learned so much from others who have suffered yet i cant seem to make anything work. ive been on the phone with the Suicide hotline for hours trying to cool my head and settle down but i dont think its enough. i can hardly get admitted to a hospital because of insurance problems & financial issues. i dont know what will become of me, but i hope i can live another day without stressing so much.
Trigger Warning ‼️ Depression & Near... - Anxiety and Depre...
Trigger Warning ‼️ Depression & Near end of life
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I AM SO VERY SORRY!! I do understand. I've been where you are. I'm glad to hear that your faith has not left. 94Killed GOD IS WITH YOU! HE KNOWS YOUR PAIN! I AM PRAYING FOR YOU! God give this young man the peace of mind and heart that he needs to know everything will be ok. Give him the assurance that "this too shall pass". This young man is aching in his soul, and we know that you, God, can ease that pain. Give him the strength to continue on. Give him the will to seize yet another day. Lord, allow this young man to be a soldier for you. Work thru him. Allow this crisis, this heartache, this unbearable grief to be a testimony he can share with others. 94 Killed, I can't promise you will never endure pain like this again, but I can tell you that with faith in God and the will to help others get thru the agony that you feel, God will show you his Divine power and you will find peace. God bless you. I will not cease praying for you.
thank you, this really means a lot. i dont have people to text so i came back here for some more advice. God has blessed me with some opportunities but i feel i need a clearer sign.
Hang on a while longer. We don’t have to think about tomorrow or yesterday. Wishing you moments of hope and of peace today. Keep reaching out.
it hurts to reach out, but i feel the hands of strangers on my shoulder comforting me when i do. the reaching out part is always the hardest.
It can hurt, I think, because we then share what we wish wasn’t so. But it heals at the same time.
We are here for you to lean on. Take all the comfort you can here. You’re doing it.
what do i hang onto specifically? its been really hard to do anything that i usually do. ive even picked up new habits & hobbies and it stopped working for me.
I can suggest some things. It’s ok if they don’t work, you’ll end up finding what does work when you search for something in your own way, your own time.
Hang onto anything that brings you positivity and glimmers of hope…any beauty you see-admire it, any second that you feel good, like joy or peace inside in any way-be grateful for it as this will help bring more of the goodness.
It’s ok if you don’t do what you used to do. Or some things don’t work out the way you pictured. Trust the process and do what feels right for you now.
okay i will, clinging onto positivity and happiness. ive been trying very hard these past couple of months. i feel bad that the advice of others didnt work for me, i tried really hard to get into them too.
TW! ive been calm since making this post, ive calmed down a lot. i was really on the verge of attempting, but this chat along with a groupchat i am in has helped. i wrote my final goodbyes & it accidentally got sent to someone through an automated program on my phone and i feel horrible that the person received the message. i was able to delete it but she had seen it already. i enjoy being anonymous on the internet but when someone in real life finds out about my troubles, i see they treat me differently, as if they need to walk on eggshells around me. it hurts that my “friend” doesnt know what to say to me, but i know i have this community to help guide me
you’re not alone. I’m going through a breakup and a bad one. I’m so distraught and lost and I’ve been doing nothing but praying. Keep praying. You’re not alone in this.
Im glad you decided to come back here. We are listening. I think I can honestly say most of us have felt the pain you are in right now. We understand. I know that I sure do! Don’t give up. It will pass, give it time. Keep coming here and talking to us. Call the help line when you need to. You are so young. You have so much to experience in this world. Get in touch with your doctor, maybe they can give you medication for the depression or adjust what you are taking. There is hope. I have been trying meds and tweaking them or changing them. I’m not giving up. You don’t either! You can message me anytime.
Hello friend 94 , you are not alone, i have been where you are many times, and it makes every avenue of life seem hopeless, but you can get through this ,and i am willing you on for a happier life.