Having a crisis still. **TRIGGER WARNING**

[Skyblue1202]

So I took an overdose. But it wasnt toxic enough. Seems I fail at even that. Had the night in a and e and saw psych liaison AGAIN. result was a meeting with my cmht which hasn't really worked. I've got therapy on friday but cant see myself making it till then.

Eurgh. I'm sick of dealing with all my health issues. Mental and physical. Just need to talk to people who actually get it because I feel like I'm going crazy. My husband is burned out because of it all which adds to the guilt.

Just want some relief from this episode. So down, depressed, lonely and anxious all of the time.

[Dolphin14]

I'm glad you made it. I'm sorry for the depth of your pain.

We have to rebuild our lives with this illness. It's hard, it's painful , it seems like it will never happen . It never truly goes away, just my own experience. But, we can make things better if we put the work into it and not give up

I know that feeling of draining people. Do you journal? Sometimes getting it out of you lightens the burden.

How often will you be seeing therapist. I'm actually surprised they are having you wait to be seen.

[kenster1]

hi your defo not a failure glad your attempt failed though life is hard at times but we can manage with good support around us.friday is just around the corner although it may seem far beyond keep chatting with us till then even with family and friends if possible.

[Depresseddoglover]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I know the pain can be unbearable but you have the will within you to live. Someone on here has said that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Stick it out, keep trying, you are worth it! If things can't get any worse, the only way to go is up! Keep posting! I hope to hear back from you!

[Konagirl01]

I’m so sorry you are going though this. I heard a podcast the other day and the topic was suicide. The podcast is called TTFA (Terrible, Thanks for asking in case you want to listen, the episodes are from Sept of 2018) in the podcast there was a quote that said “Depression is the cancer of the soul”, which is why suicide can feel like the only option at times for some people. A lot of people simply can’t understand the struggle that some of us go through but YOU are not alone in this.

I hope that you will stay with us and know that every day brings possibility if you can just hang on...sometimes we just need even the smallest reason to choose to stay and fight for ourselves.

[Skyblue1202]

Hi everyone

Thanks for all your support and suggestions. I'm calling up the connections line quite a few times each day, but they arent always helpful.

I will make sure I make it to friday. I'm determined

[Secretwindow]

I am here if you need to chat..I suffer constant anxiety and I'm also feeling like I'm chasing people away and my poor husband has to handle my physical and mental pain that can make my sometimes happy self very irritable.