Idk what to do with this job interview

[Against_the_current]

I really appreciate how mom said i can rest and that's why I feel bad im searching for a job while i have the opportunity to rest and that im still not okay. I really don't know if the job will finish me or help me distract. Also my parents want me to get a job in my field so i don't forget what i studied but i couldn't find such a job. Mom said at the autumn, because in Bulgaria everything shuts at summer for rest and because of the heat, to go to the barracks and ask if they need my services as a military psychologist. It pays well and i don't think i have to go every day. But there's chance they will just dismiss me. I'm in the reserve, if they wanted me, they would have called. Also if i go alone, i will forget my name, if mom comes with me the military guys would laugh. Imagine 10 years ago moms were trying to get their sons out of the military and now my mom is trying to get me in the military. And it's a heavy job, i definitely need more education. The worst is i need further education to work in my field unless by any miracle i get in a school as a counsellor. But once again if i was in a normal country where there weren't ghosts, medieval torture equipment, bacteria that makes me puke out my guts and cough out my lungs, burnt out sadistic nurses that tie you up like an animal, no bedsheets, no clean water and really low budget for food, no therapy , my fear of hospitals because i spent my childhood there and soviet building hospitals, i would submit myself in a mental hospital and stay for two months.I thought of calling them and saying i got injured and i can't come but when i get better. Or going there and saying i have problems with my health. I'm falling asleep just to avoid it. Nauseous and anxious. I don't know how bad i will be when it comes. I don't know if it will heal me or kill me. I don't know whether to talk with mom about it because i need advice but im scared she would tell me to do it or take the decision. I'm so lost. My only wish is that i applied after a month. I love this store and it's a good place if i don't find job as a psychologist but one month to rest would be good. Especially when it's hot as hell and I have to catch a bus to be there. It's next to my dad's house but i can't go there anymore and i have to travel from mom's house. With the mold i realise what she was doing for us. But maybe it would be better to be st work when she's drunk. But no garantee they would give me late shifts. Especially when i sleep till late. That's just how my brain is made. Grandma and mom are the same

[gajh]

You could go to the interview and tell them that you are not able to start until one month out. Just tell them you are not available until then, you don't have to give a detailed explanation. If they like you and want you, they may be willing to wait.

[SoporRose in reply to gajh]

That’s not bad advice.

If you do take the next month to pull together, you might consider arranging some informational interviews with business that interest you. That would give you experience with talking with people about jobs and about yourself without the pressure of applying or having to worry about getting accepted or rejected.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

True

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

I think that's the best i can do. Thank you.

[MSanon]

Against_the_current ,

There is a sample EFT session video in this article. Have you ever tried EFT ? It is worth trying it... May help calm you.

articles.mercola.com/sites/...

[Against_the_current in reply to MSanon]

Thank you