Rambling thoughts

[Yellowsmilieface]

When I am happy, I am very happy. When I am sad, I just want to harm myself to get rid of the emptiness or the loneliness I feel. I feel like everyone takes advantage of my kindness. It hard to live in a world like this sometimes. I love living and happy to be alive but sometimes it feels like it is too much. I cry a lot and I don't understand what I have done in life for it to be so cruel. Sorry for sounding crazy or rambling, but I just needed somewhere to talk or not feel alone.

[Agora1]

Hi Yellowsmilieface and Welcome to our community of caring people.

I'm happy you are with us and as you will see, you are not alone xx

[Vonus5591]

Working for charity helped me and met nice caring people. As job for caring I know more people with pure thoughts and kindness. Respect and dignity so important. Please find environment or people that help you

[Desperate4Happiness]

you are not crazy and you are not rambling. We are all here because we understand what anxiety and depression looks like. I have the same ups and downs that you describe. It's not easy from day to day but hopefully support from others on this site will help.

Do you see a therapist? If you are on meds, maybe it's time to review them and make adjustments?

What does your in-person support look like?

[Yellowsmilieface in reply to Desperate4Happiness]

I do see a therapist (just recently started). Not on meds. No in-person support. That is why I have been searching for websites similar to this, just to have someone to talk to or vent. Just to feel I am not alone.

[Desperate4Happiness]

I just joined this site last week and it was the best thing I could've done. I have a great in-person support system but I don't expect them to be available 24/7 to hear me cry.

I now feel supported in this group and feel useful when I can offer support to others as well. I hope you find what you're looking for here. It appears to be made up of an amazing community of people who strive to lift each up.