Hello I have recently found this new community of anxiety and depression and I have been wanting to post on here but I am not sure if people here have intrusive thoughts like me or just get so obsessed with a certain thing sometimes that is disturbing and that causes bad depression and crying almost every single day. I wish I could meet everyone on here and we could all just sit around and talk! Sometimes that I am out and about with my boyfriend I see everyone else either in stores or restaurants so happy living there lives and I just wish I was like that and I didn't have this mental illness but well you never know if that person who is smiling in the outside is completely devastated in the inside. I don't know if I am the only one but sometimes I feel like just crying for some time and when I am done I feel a little better. I believe that God has a plan for me like he does for all of us here we just need to keep going and keep our faith.
I remember the first time I experienced these thoughts they were so debilitating that I had to quit my job and I felt like the whole world was coming to an end. I miss my old self I was so responsible and independent! I loved going to work and I would laugh everyday make others around me laugh I was so happy. All of that changed I no longer work I have to sleep with someone because I am scared of sleeping alone. I cry every other day waiting for this to magically go away. I remember my dad used to tell me when I lived with him for a while and I was first going through this he would see me cry and tell me just relax you have a boyfriend who supports you you are a beautiful girl with brand name things a great car what else do you want from life stop crying. These words would make everything worse of course but he didn't understand what I was going through exactly.
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I have so much respect for people who battle with mental illness everyday it is really hard and I believe we are very strong people. I love everyone one here for being so brave and getting through each day. I am so glad I found this website.
God Bless.
Dany
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I read most of your previous posts, and I truly believe you will greatly benefit from the book "Brain Lock" by Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz. It's very easy to read, and filled with examples of real-life obsessive thoughts and compulsions (with the names changed, of course). Every one of the terrible thoughts you mentioned are in that book - and many, many more. You will see how common these thoughts are. No, you not a monster. You are a good person with an anxiety disorder. I strongly recommend you get "Brain Lock". It will give you peace of mind.
Hi thanks I will look for this book I LOVE READING! Recently what has been giving me peace of mind is praying that God gives me the strength to fight this daily battle! I am praying for you as well. This will get better
Hello to you and welcome to the forum. You have come to the right place. We can all in some way relate to the same things. I can definitely relate to everything you are saying especially about intrusive thoughts. Man, have I been stuck in tunnel vision with racing thoughts, couldn't sleep because of it, couldn't focus, and it controlled me. I still have my days when my anxiety is at its worst when it happens.
I tried medication for exactly 45 days and quit because I just felt it was not helpful, well maybe it could have been but my anxiety wouldn't allow me to give the medication a chance. But after almost four years now of going through this I have managed to not take any meds but except that once. It's a hard journey. But it's funny you mentioned what you do in your post, I have a broadcast on YouTube that basically discusses what anxiety does and how I am facing my fear of fate. I actually have an episode that talks exactly about intrusive thoughts. If you can, check it out. Maybe it can be of some help to know you are not alone.
Hi thanks for the video I will take a look at it! I completely understand when you say this is a very hard journey but God can give you the strength to fight this daily battle just seek him!
Hi! I don't know youre story but I am sure you have suffered as I have. I will pray for you that God gives you the strength to fight this battle you are not alone. I am here for you an so is he!
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