depersonalization derealization

[anonleo]

has anyone dealt with these feelings intensely?? It leaves for a few hours and then comes back really strong and it’s like a never ending loop I’m so scared I’m gonna lose it or something

[Hidden]

Yes I suffer with Depersonalization Disorder... I feel out of touch with myself, I feel like I'm watching a movie about myself, I'm just standing on the sidelines watching myself go through everyday life. I don't like feeling this way and I wonder if it will ever go away.

[vanscoy]

Hi! Yes I feel like that and don't like it when it comes. Trying to find a way out.

[Hidden]

Depersonalization disorder is a result of anxiety. I would suggest engaging in anxiety – reduction techniques, such as meditation, mindful, breathing, therapy, and possibly medication, if you are comfortable with that. It sounds like you are in a cycle in which you experience depersonalization and that increases your anxiety and then you worry about having depersonalization disorder again, and that brings it on. It’s anticipatory anxiety.

[anonleo in reply to Hidden]

Yes. Every time it goes away I’m worrying about preparing for the next wave 😭

[brendahol]

I have had that also. Of all of the panic and anxiety disorders I feel like this one is the worst. How do you cope when you feel you aren’t even there? It absolutely terrifies me

[anonleo in reply to brendahol]

I really wouldn’t even say I cope.. yesterday was terrifying for me. I just tried to stay busy and deep breaths

[Slickrock]

I suffer from it as well. It is an odd and uncomfortable feeling. Anxiety can produce so many symptoms and weird feelings I couldn’t even begin to name them all. I can recommend a few books that have been helpful. At Last a Life by Paul David and Untangle Your Anxiety. The later is a great explanation of anxiety and its symptoms. DM me if you would like chat more.

[anonleo in reply to Slickrock]

How do you cope and get through the feelings?? I feel like this again and I’m so scared I just want it to end I feel like I’ll never be normal again and I’m gonna go crazy

[Slickrock in reply to anonleo]

Well its one of the easiest things to do in theory and one of the hardest things to do in reality. Anxiety is something that the more you fight and push it away, the worse it gets. The reality is if you can not engage the feeling but rather feel it and let it pass it will lessen and eventually go away. Same with the thoughts. Of course you hate the feeling. I certainly do when its bad but fighting it never works. Is this your first experience with bad anxiety? Unfortunately I have been with it most of my life at times.

[anonleo in reply to Slickrock]

No it isn’t. I use to have it this bad all the time about three- four years ago. This just has came back and hit me like a ton of bricks out of nowhere.. I’m use to the occasional panic attacks at this point.